Monday, April 27, 2015

The Last of 20

How can it be? How can it be that 20 will be over tomorrow???? I feel like I just had my last birthday...

This year was actually pretty great for me. No, I didn't get married or start a relationship or anything like that. But I did finally choose my major for good and I think I chose well. I wrote SO MUCH this year, more than ever before. I grew as a writer and as a person. I also started my fitness journey and my self esteem and body image has never been better. I had the best day of my life this year at the Secret Classic, I did expand my autograph collection as I wanted to. I accomplished some goals at least :)

Tomorrow I will officially be "in my 20's" it is so crazy!! Aren't I still 18?? Didn't I just graduate high school? Time man, time.

So here's to 20! It was a year of changes, a year of self discovery and a year of writing. May 21 be even better!

Friday, April 24, 2015

Party Prep and Bruce Jenner

My birthday par-tay is tomorrow! My actual birthday isn't until Tuesday but I'm really excitec to celebrate early with my family. Claire is coming home and that is a major plus, I can't wait to see her. We haven't seen each other for one of our birhdays in 2 years!

For the party we're making a bunch of tasty appetizers and my cake is going to be sooo good. Tonight my mom and M are going to make an additional batch of cupcakes while I babysit MFF. Tomorrow, E and I are going to chocolate covered strawberries.

Tonight is also the much anticipated Bruce Jenner/Diane Sawyer interview. As an on and off watcher of KUWTK, I can say that this whole gender transition drama has been playing with my mind for a long time. I'm ready for Bruce to just put the subject to rest, no matter if it's true or not. I will hopefully get to tune in after the kids go to sleep ;)


Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Diary of Fit Girl: 7 Months

Wow! I can't believe it's been seven months since I started working out. I've had some spotty attendance in the past month or so, only going twice a week instead of 3 times, but I'm back on track.

The results are so encouraging and I love how strong I feel during the workout and afterward. My stomach is all muscle now, and I have ab definition when I flex! My arms and legs are super toned as well. What I've learned (after hearing it from the trainers about  dozen times :), is that you really do get what you put into the workout out of it. If I don't give it my all, I won't be burning as much off and I'm only letting myself down. There are few things better than walking out of the gym and knowing that you put in 100%. Some days there will be sweat dripping down my face and my hair will be drenched but I like it because I know it means I'm working my hardest.

My fitness "highlight" so far has been holding an elbow plank for five straight minutes. I was one of only six other people (out of about 60) in the class who made it all the way and I was so proud! The trainer and the other people were cheering for us, it was a great feeling. If I zone out and don't focus on the pain and strain, I can go a lot further than if I'm hung up one what I'm doing. Going through song lyrics in my head definitely helps.

Summer is fast approaching and I can't lie, I'm looking forward to wearing my swimsuit and enjoying the benefits of working so hard these past months!

Monday, April 20, 2015

April Showers

A list!
  1. I hate that silly rhyme "April Showers Bring May Flowers" because on the birthday board in elementary school my name was always on a raincloud or an umbrella. 
  2. Still, it has been quite a rainy month, which is a good thing because everything is looking green again!!!
  3. I have a long break from work until after the semester ends. 
  4. My birthday is in 8 days!! My family party is Saturday and I am so hoping that Claire can come home for it. 
  5. I just read my 8th book for this year and need a new one asap. Check out my book page if you're looking for any recommendations, I've read a lot of good ones so far in 2015.
  6. I ate my dads delicious banana cookies for breakfast but it's ok, I'm going to work it off later on at boxing :)
  7. DWTS is on tonight!! E and I are really into it again, we're rooting for Robert and Kym, Riker and Allison and of course, Rumer and Val!! (Go home Chris and Nastia)
  8. I have to clean the house in a few minutes here and organize the shoe closet. Should be a load of giggles. 
  9. That's all folks, duty calls!
Happy Monday to all!

Friday, April 17, 2015

Surgery Part Three: Recovery

Recovery was, on the whole, not that bad. Especially after having the awful experience of back surgery, this was nothing really! For the first couple days, my eyes water uncontrollably which sucked. It also hurt to look to the side so I had to train myself to move my head instead of my eyes. Honestly, the hardest thing was probably adjusting to wearing glasses again, which I haven't done in 6 years. At first they made me dizzy and felt off but I did get used to them. Before I was feeling better, I spent about four days watching a lot of TV (Dateline..tones of it!) and having my sisters read to me.

Eventually, I felt back to normal which was awesome! I ended up wearing my glasses for over a month because I needed to get new contacts which took a little bit. My eyes have stayed straight, and now that the redness is gone, they look really nice! I'm happy with the result and happy I had it done. It was a really tough decision but in the end, I feel that God was with me every step and protected me from harm. I am so thankful.

Today is actually the first day I've started to wear my contacts again. I'm glad that I know I can wear glasses now if I have to but I am definitely a contacts girl! It is so nice to have clear peripheral vision again and not to have something heavy on my face!

Of course, there is always the possible that my eyes will begin to drift again and in that case, yes, I will be a little disappointed. But, I can always have more work done (though I don't want to) and it's not the end of the world. Right now, I'm just trusting in God and living my life!

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Happy Birthday Ruby!!

I can't believe my little puppy is 7 today! I was just 13 when she was born and I had no idea that in two months we would drive two hours to take her home. I am so happy that she is part of our family.
Happy Birthday to my sweet, spunky, snuggly, spirited and adorable Ruby-roo!

Friday, April 10, 2015

I'm Not Ambitious and That's Ok

On Easter, my cousin Kate and I were discussing how neither of us really got stressed about school. I explained to her that my laise fare attitude is primarily due to the fact that I'm just not an ambitious person. Of course, I've been driven to achieve certain goals in my life but I don't have these big dreams that I feel compelled to accomplish. I'm not Claire, who has big and beautiful dreams to set design in Disneyland or Cirque de Sole. I'm not M, who has wanted to be a teacher her whole life and wants a solid career before anything else. I just...don't really care about any of that stuff.

What I really want, what I really desire, I cannot achieve through A's in school or recommendation letters.  l could be the valedictorian of Harvard or win the Nobel Peace Prize and still not be fulfilled. I know I've wrote about it to death but here it is again: all I really want is to be a wife and mother. That's it. Period, the end. Sure, I'd love to write for as long as I live and maybe even publish a book but I can't see that being the be all end all.

So maybe I am ambitious, if not in a big way. I have goals and dreams and hopes, they just aren't big and exciting (to me they are though). I used to pretend that I wanted to be this or that instead of telling people my true desire, but now I just go right out and say it because, why not?


Monday, April 6, 2015

Easter 2015

Easter this year was the best I've had in a long time! Here's how it went:

I woke up a little earlier than I needed to because the night before we failed to finish The Sound of Music (which we always watch the night before Easter), so I got ready quickly and sat down to watch. TSOM has been my favorite movie since I was four so it certainly holds a special place in my heart.

My outfit this year was a little last minute due to some choir rules so E and I actually ended up in beautiful matching skirts! Hers was blue and mine was white and I do think we looked pretty nice :)). I also had my hair straightened and am still sporting my glasses, I thought I looked pretty nice if I do say so myself. Right after the movie ended my aunt came to pick my mom, E and I up to get to church early so we could rehearse in the choir. The songs sounded really nice so I was excited to get to worship in front of the whole congregation! As I as singing, I raised my hands in praise for one of the first times, previously I'd been really self conscious about doing so but I decided to release my inhibition and go for it. It felt great! God is not dead, He's ALIVE!

After church we stopped home to get stuff ready and take some pictures and then we headed to my mom's brothers house to see her side of the family for a little while. It was a really small crowd over there but I busied myself by being a bit of a glutton with the appetizers. I'm not really sure what came over me...but I ate a lot.

We left there and took a long back route to my uncle and aunt on my dads side. We were the first to arrive and I was feeling really full and tired. The rest of the family all seemed to com at once which livening me up a bit. My uncle D said a really nice prayer and then we feasted! The food was delicious and I managed to eat my fair share despite already stuffing myself earlier. My dad and I each made a loaf of Easter bread so I got to try mine there, it was a little dense but came out good for the first time making it. We had a good time talking over dinner and catching up.

After we ate we relaxed before eating the delicious desert, the best cheesecake I've ever had. SO GOOD. Then I relaxed in the living room while my dad, aunt and uncle watched golf intently. They're in an online tournament so they were getting really into it which was quite fun to watch. Then we sat around a table again and talked about everything from our future plans to fond memories of the past. I love my family!!

Happy Easter to all!

Friday, April 3, 2015

Easter Weekend and a Tribute

Well, it's upon us! Easter seemed to come really fast this year, it's not the earliest it could be but it still snuck up on me. My mom, E and my favorite aunt and uncle and myself are all going to be singing in choir on Easter Sunday. I'm really looking forward to it.

Typically we go to my grandpas house for Easter but this year him and my grandma bought a condo in Florida and went for the winter. They won't be back until after Easter and some of the other family on my mom' side will also be absent. So, we decided to go to my dad's side instead. I'm pretty happy about this because I'm a lot closer to them and a lot of them are believers so the day will have more meaning to them.


In other news, Hayley Okines passed away yesterday. For those of you who don't know, Hayley was a 17 year English girl who had Progeria which caused her body to age at a rapid pace. I've been following Hayley and her story for a long time now and have been inspired by her spirit and positive attitude. I'm so sad that she didn't get to live as long as most people because she truly was an amazing person. 

Thank you Hayley, for sharing your story and for making the most of your 17 years. You will be missed by many.