Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Workflow, Then and Now

I so wish I had been blogging during the time I began my internship at the hospital in February of 2012. My first day was a complete disaster. The NA (nurse assistant) that I was working with was less than nice, a nurse told me, "Welcome to Hell," when I said told her I was new and I nearly got lost trying to find my way to the locker room and had to be shown the way by a kind Housekeeper. I cried, hard, in the locker room as I changed into my clothes. I fell into a routine of dreading work, while telling people I loved it. In the midst of this I enjoyed blissful dinner breaks where I would meet up with 4 other girls from my medical class at school who were also interning in different parts of the hospital. We laughed and shared food, I remember thinking (I'm very sentimental) that I was so enjoying this time with my friends in the hospital atrium. I even said something along the lines of, "This time will go by so fast, I bet we'll be sitting here on our last day in May and thinking it flew by," Still, my first weeks were even tough, I was never sure if I was doing things right, the nurses didn't seem to care I was even there. I was only working back in Labor and Delivery where I rarely had any patient contact. I would hang out by the OR's just to catch a glimpse of a baby fresh from a C-section.

As I said earlier, time flew by and today things are so different. I am now hired as a NA and I get to work in Postpartum and L&D, depending on the day. I trained a new aid today and didn't even have to pretend to know what I was talking about because I really did. I have seen 2 C-sections and 3 regular deliveries. I laughed with other workers that once seemed standoffish, I chatted with the NA that had made my first day miserable, I had earned her respect and she earned mine. I now work 8 hour days instead of 4 or 5. I take vital signs, I know how to set up baby cribs and OR's, I assist nurses, I know all the lingo and medical jargon. I hold babies sometimes. Two of my friends were hired as well, one in my unit so I get to see her sometimes and one in EKG who I have yet to run into. I eat with my mom when it isn't busy and in the break room if it is. My job isn't easy but it's rewarding and it has plenty of variety and I can honestly say that I really do like it.

 It was worth the crying and the anxiety. It was even worth me wearing scrubs that are 3 sizes too big.

Monday, July 29, 2013

A July List

  1. The weather has been extremely undesirable here, that kind of in between temperature that you don't know what to wear in. At least yesterday was sunny, today was rainy and gloomy. 
  2. I spent the day with M and our cousins daughter who she nannies, we went to the mall and to the library. 
  3. I have Bible study in about 45 minutes, I'm looking forward to discussing our homework wit the group! 
  4. Everything has FINALLY been sorted out with work, scheduling was a nightmare but it's over! 
  5. My "healthy eating" has not been going well this summer, honestly I think I've had a desert every day for the past few months. Bad. 
  6. My family and I got to volunteer at an awesome event at our church this past Saturday, I loved it and felt a great sense of accomplishment when we were done. 
  7. I have a dentist appointment tomorrow, I expect my gums to bleed as always. The ladies there have no mercy. 
  8. I hadn't seen a whole lot of C lately (because of conflicting work schedules) but last week I got to see her almost every day! I missed hanging out with my best friend. 
Happy Monday!

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Just Me, Ruby and God

Sorry for the lack of posts, I haven't much felt like writing. But, never fear as I will prevail!

Yesterday I took my dog on a walk by myself. This really is no small feat as I have such a huge fear of being kidnapped. It's only recently that I've felt comfortable enough to walk my neighborhood alone. For the first half of my walk I was a bit on edge but as I began a bit of a new route I decided to use my solitude to pray. I prayed for the salivation of many friends, I prayed for a new acquaintance who is dying and for his family, I prayed for my cousins baby, I prayed for the school year ahead, I prayed about scheduling issues at work, I prayed in thanks for many things, I prayed all the way home. Typically I pray before bed and I often fall asleep in the middle of my prayers or say them rushed because I'm tired. I know it is so important to pray whole hardheartedly and I'm so happy that I got the chance to do this yesterday. I think I'll have to come up with a quiet time routine soon, where I would get to read my Bible and pray without avail.


Thursday, July 18, 2013

The Worst Day

Lars is broken again. That's why I haven't posted...I really feel as though I need to write about this event before too much time passes. Here goes.

Last Saturday, July 13th, we were still on vacation. Earlier in the day my favorite aunt and uncle and my own family had gone to see a lighthouse. That evening we were celebrating my cousin K's upcoming birthday. My mom, sisters and I went to the general store for some brownie mix. On our way back we saw an ambulance. My mom remarked how it wast the first we'd seen all vacation. It turned down one of the roads leading to our house and my mom started to panic. She was thinking of my 87 year old grandma and we all made fun of how she always assumes the worst. When the ambulance didn't go directly down our road, she eased up and we headed inside. I told E to wait outside and I would meet her back with my camera because I wanted to do a house video tour. I ran up to the top level to get the camera and noticed my grandma rushing down the outside steps. The house had an elevator so this was unusual, I went out sliding door and asked, "Here grandma, let me help you"

"Somethings wrong," she said in a worried voice, "Somethings happened at the beach" I took her arm and we began to walk over the dunes. At this point I wasn't extremely worried, I tend to have the "This won't happen to me" complex a lot. My grandma was worried though she said she'd seen my aunt running back and forth from the house and that she thought it was someone in our family who was in trouble. When we walked over the hill and I saw the beach in front of me I knew that something serious was happening. The usually calm and private beach was swarmed with people. There were two ambulance vehicles. My whole family (except for my sisters and mom who had no idea this was even going on yet and my aunt and uncle m who were out) were standing in a line looking to the ocean. It was so eerie, I'll never forget it. I was slowly making my way down the stairs with my grandma and she told me to go ahead and she'd be fine but I didn't leave her because I was afraid she would fall.

I noticed that my cousin Rob was there and immediately thought, "Oh, it's not someone in our family, Rob was the only one who was even going in the ocean". I approached the crowd with my grandma and asked, "What's going on?" My cousin K said, in a soft voice I'll never forget, "Um, your dads in there"

I asked what had happened, starting to cry right away. Apparently he had went in to aid three boys who were trapped out by the waves. He had tried to bring them boogie boards but ended up getting in trouble himself. Rescuers had gone in but they too had been unable to return to shore,. Thoughts raced through my head, I honestly thought my dad would surely drown. It was the worst feeling in the world, I can't even describe it. I thought of how my mom would never be able to handle it and how I wouldn't go back to school. I was crying and saying a lot of things I can't remember and my aunt C was comforting me. At one point I realized I was still holding my camera, I dropped it with some sense of bitterness, thinking that nothing mattered anymore. I asked my aunt, "Can we pray?" she said of course we could but I couldn't even form a thought so I asked her to pray for us. I begged God silently to bring my dad back safely.

After a few minutes I said, "I can't do this!" and I meant that there was no possible way I could handle standing on the beach while my dad drowned and they carried his body way I could do it. My aunt said, "Look! They're bringing your daddy in!" I saw a jet ski circling around but they brought in the other boys first and I started to panic, where is my dad??? Finally they brought him nearly to shore but let him off before it got to shallow I was worried that he wouldn't be able to swim the few yards in but he did. Behind me I heard my mom and sisters rushing toward the scene. I ran to E first, "They got him out, they got him out" I said. Everyone was crying.

The four people they'd pulled out of the water were in a little huddle with paramedics. Everyone was alright just tired of course and it was a while before they were released. I was still crying from the release of emotion and pure relief that my dad was ok.

Eventually we all walked back to the house and sat in the big living room, my dad rested like a big hero and everyone told their account of what had happened. It was the only time we'd all gathered in that room.

This was really the scariest thing that's ever happened to me and I am so thankful to God for being so merciful and that everyone was alright.

I'll update more later-hopefully on a fixed Lars! (My laptop ;)

Friday, July 12, 2013

Stormy Beach Day

About an hour ago I went down to the pool, swam for a bit and then hung in the hot tub with my favorite uncle and my sisters (hilarious antics...) suddenly a big storm cloud came through and before we knew it it was raining-hard! We ran back to the pool to grab our stuff and then headed inside to take shelter.

I love it here...I wish I could stay forever. There is something really awesome about having so many people you love around you all the time.
Oh and thanks for all the support for revealing my name! Ha, I just felt like doing it I guess...


Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Yesterday May Have Been the Perfect Day...

I swam.
I went to the beach.
I ate good food.
I chatted with family.
I swam some more.
I watched New Girl before bed.
I slept well.
I love it here.
This is me folks. This is me. 


Monday, July 8, 2013


We are here.

It is paradise.

We arrived around 5 and I went almost right to the pool. The water was perfect and I have never felt so happy and excited to be anywhere. The house is gorgeous and I get to be among my family. We went out to eat last night a sea food place, I just got salad :) when we got home we took a walk down to the beach. It was dark and sort of scary because I didn't have a flash light, I had to rely on M's phone light.

Ahhh, today I plan on swimming a lot and spending some time down at the beach. I love it here and I am so happy!!

Friday, July 5, 2013

Vacation-All I Ever Wanted

Rodger that! I am soooo ready to just leave already but the stress of packing is proving to be quite hard on my family. It doesn't make it any easier that the car we're taking is wayyy too small to accommodate us and our luggage. The things that are currently stressing me out are as follows:
  • M feels as though she is getting sick, I'm certain that I'll catch it as well
  • I fear that I'll have little to no personal space in the car tomorrow and be seriously claustrophobic the whole way.
  • My dad will not be able to fit my suitcase in the car.
Oye...when did vacations become so stressful???  I'm banking on the fact that once I'm there I will be relaxed. Here are my goals for vacation:
  1. Get very tan/lighten my hair
  2. Swim a ton
  3. Have a deep conversation with a family member
  4. Reconnect with my cousins
  5. Take a ton of pictures
  6. Cherish every moment
Alrighty, I'll end there because there is still so much to do.

Oh the phone just rang, and I had the following conversation with my dad who is running a last minute errand:

Me: Hopefully you'll get home soon
Dad: When are we going to pack the car?
Me: Tonight!
Dad: Ooooooh, that's crazy. 

Yes it is crazy because it's already late and we probably won't get to bed for hour sand hours and have to wake up for our 7:30 meeting time .Yep, it's fun around here!
I'm not sure if I'll be posting while on vacation, I'd kind of like to so we'll see!

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Independance Day

Wow! Ok there has been so much going on that I haven't had time/felt like writing at all. However, I do want to make sure that all of my memories are documented. SO, onward.

Vacation is quickly approaching and there is so many issues going on with which car we are taking. The final decision is to take our smaller car which gives very limited space. Now we're really having to scale down our packing and it's stressing everyone out. I am still extremely excited about our beach house though. I remember writing about it way back in September, I cannot believe the time is nearly here. I can't wait to spend time by the water with the people I love the most.

This morning we went to a 4th of July parade that E was in for her first marching band performance, it was a nice down home celebration and I got to see some people from school. Afterward we went!!


Monday, July 1, 2013


  • I can't believe it's July
  • I work an 8 hour shift tomorrow and it's my last day before we go on vacation!! 
  • I don't feel like writing right now at all...
  • I just packed my lunch for work
  • The weather has been very dreary :(
  • I'm very tired. 
Happy July to all! I will write a more coherent post soon.