Sunday, December 29, 2013

Here's to the Birthday Boy Who Saved Our Llives (2013 Christmas Recap)

Well, on the night before Christmas Eve we I was super productive and got nearly everything done. Then I watched the American Girl Felicity movie by myself and It's a Wonderful Life with my mom and sister. I started feeling "off" around 8 or so and took a turn for the worse around midnight. Sparing the details I'll say that I had a stomach bug. So on Christmas Eve I felt ok in the morning, I took a shower but then I started just feeling waves of sickness. I really wanted to go to the festivities though so I bucked it up and went to Church and to my moms sisters house.

I had a hard time paying attention or even singing at church but felt a little better once we got to the house. I was thoroughly entertained with my cousins kids who are now 1, 2 and 3. I got M's gift in the gift exchange which I wanted. It's a water bottle that infuses real fruit into the drink. Once I got home I went right to bed, I was so tired!

Christmas morning I started off feeling alright but I felt sort of hungry so mid-gift opening I had my mom make me some toast but something didn't settle right and I ended up laying on the couch for the remainder of the presents. I really felt awful and though  I would be sick again, my mom sat with me and we watched Monk, I finally began to feel better. My favorite uncle and aunt came over and we exchanged gifts before all heading to my uncles for my dads side of the family's celebration. I was seriously hungry but only had potatos to protect my fragile stomach. Then we caroled and did our homemade gift exchange. I made a frame and collage picture of our family vacation that seemed to be appreciated and I received a lovely tree painting by my favorite grandma who happens to be an artist :). It will be the perfect piece to hang next to my bed since I'm still in the process of redoing my room.

After gifts we opened our envelopes that held the predictions we wrote last year. Mine was funny and came true. I had written that I hoped I'd have my major figured out in school and low and behold-I figured it out! People were already leaving at this point so no one wrote new predictions, BUT my aunt said I could mail mine to her and she'll keep it until Christmas 2014! I will take her up on that for sure.

The day after Christmas we always have our celebration with C and her family. We all ate dinner together at our long dining room table and it was so much fun, we definitely are one big family. Afterward we exchanged gifts, both C and I had gotten each other (different) Barbie movies, it's one of our things. Her sister gave me an awesome homemade notebook and their mom got us all scapbooking kits. Fun!! To top everything off we played our new game "Say Anything" and it was hilarious.

Christmas this year was marred by me being sick though, I'm super thankful that I did feel better for the latter half of Christmas Day and afterward but I'm sad that I had to be sick again :(. Oh well, here's to hoping I'll be healthy next year, it will be here before I know it. :)


Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Merry Christmas

I meant to post sooner and more but I fell ill (seriously, I can't believe I was sick again this year), anyway I just want to wish everyone out there a very merry Christmas! May you have blessings and peace.


Saturday, December 21, 2013

The Most Wonderful Time of the Year

Oh how I love this Christmas season! Just 4 more days, I can't believe how fast it's gone. I still have a good amount to get done, such as:
  • I have to make my gift for my dads side of the family's get together on Christmas
  • Bake cookies with M
  • Buy gifts for 2 people
  • Bind the short story collection I made for my grandma 
Hopefully I can get everything done today so that I'm not rushing. M and I will be giving El her gift today and then heading off to do some efficient shopping. The good news is that I finished all my knitting! I'm glad to get that done :). Last night my mom and M and I wrapped a good amount of stuff, I still have a little more to do but I'm way over half done. Oh I can't wait!!


Thursday, December 19, 2013

And at Last I've Seen the Lights!

Wow, I feel bad that it's been a whole week since I've posted. I have been having lots of fun times at home. On Tuesday I went with my mom to do (almost) all of my Christmas shopping. It took much longer than expected but I'm glad to get it done.

Right now it is about an hour before I have to leave for work and I wish I were asleep. I haven't worked an 8 hour shift since summer so it won't be any fun getting back into the swing of things. I hope it's not busy. Tomorrow I'm going to bake with M and probably wrap presents. Saturday we have a family party, Sunday we have Church and then Christmas movie night with my favorite aunt and uncle and Monday will probably be some last minute stuff for Christmas!! I can't wait!

As you may have guessed, the title of this post comes from the movie Tangled which came out three years ago but I just saw yesterday. It. Was. Awesome.


Thursday, December 12, 2013

Christmas Art and Decor

I'm trying to kill some time right now before I watch my Christmas TV shows. Last night around 11:00 my roommate who I haven't seen in 3 weeks showed up and made noise until 4 am. Then this morning she proceeded to talk on the phone for 4 hours straight. Thank you Lord that I am coming home tomorrow. I very nearly went mad and had to call M to calm me down. I really hope and pray that I can sleep tonight. I'll be nervous about tomorrow and possibly dealing with noise and light...I want my own bed so bad it hurts. Less than 24 hours Grace, settle down.

So, I decided to do a picture post with the decorations I made for around the room. Enjoy!

I got this stick on poster from Target and I love it. I love clouds and the colors and being free. I made it festive with a paper Santa hat.

 Some garland from Target as well that I messily tried to arrange. And I made a paper wreath to spice it up a bit.

I made this weeks ago while I was bored. I'm usually not a huge fan of using non-Christmas colors for wrapping paper, cards etc. but I think it looks cute. I put it on the door of my wardrobe.

And what Christmas season is every complete without an advent calender filled with German chocolate?? I'm now down to the 13th day! I can't believe how fast time has gone by. 

Finally, there is this sign that I free handed for some cheer. I really like the way it turned out, simple but cute. It's on the wall next to my desk.

I'll be taking everything down tomorrow and I know it seems like kind of a waste since they were up for less than two weeks but I really love decorating and now I can bring them home to put in my room or around the house. I look forward to blogging from my kitchen tomorrow evening! It can't come soon enough :)


Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Wednesday Night Ramblings

I just had to redoe an assignment because my hand had a spasm and I clicked "no" when Microsoft Word asked if I wanted to save it. It. Was. Awful.

In actuality it wasn't really that bad and didn't take me long to redo but it was scary and annoying. Tonight I am just ready to go home. So ready that I'm sad and annoyed and of course nervous about the whole leaving process. What if there is bad weather and M is late or can't come at all???? I really have to just pray hard and give my worries to God. I have just one more presentation tomorrow and my final exam on Friday. I am ready to be done. Today I was able to take the optional psychology final that replaces a lower grade so now my grade will be improved a little. I think I did really good this semester and I have to be proud of myself. I never saw these kinds of grades in high school.

Tomorrow, other than giving the presentation, I have to pack up my things and clean the room a little bit. The floor is rather filthy. But I don't have any cleaning supplies so it should be interesting. I've been watching a Christmas episode of a TV or a TV movie every night to stay in the spirit. I did it last year too and it's always fun. As I said yesterday, we watch all the Christmas movies at home so I have free reign over the TV stuff here. Tonight I'll watch a Christmas episode of Party of Five, Full House and Boy Meets World. 90's TV at it's finest.

Well I'm going to sign off now. I can't wait until Friday afternoon when I can blog from home. Oh it will be a happy day indeed.


Tuesday, December 10, 2013

So Close!

In just over 72 hours I will be home free! I can't wait for this break and I'm super excited for Christmas. Our house is completely decorated now so it's hard not to be in the spirit. On Sunday night we watched our favorite Christmas movie, The Family Stone. We watch it every year and honestly, that movie never gets old. On Friday we'll watch Annie, which I also love.

Today I had my first exam in Speech class, I got a B so all is good. I'm most nervous about my Ethics final which is Friday. Also, over the weekend I did my entire Human Cultures paper so it is done and ready to go which is a giant load off my back! Oh how I can't wait for the beautiful feeling of having everything done.

Over the weekend I got to see C four times and it was awesome, it's so great having her home. I have no idea what I'm getting anyone for Christmas but I do plan to make leg warmers for some people which is easy (and cheap). Mainly though I'm nervous about not knowing what to get either one of my sisters. Both are actually really hard to shop for, M has pretty specific taste and E is all over the place with what she likes.

This post was all over the place! Ha, well I'm off to relax for awhile before studying. I already got a good amount accomplished today.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Rise and Shine

Eek, it's early and I soon have to wake one of my parents up to drive me to work, which I hate doing. I also don't feel like working but whatever. Tonight is a Christmas party for the adults on my dads side of the family and I'll be right next door watching El! It's really starting to feel like that time of year!!

Seeing C last night was AWESOME, she is one person that never changes and I'll never ever feel awkward or nervous around. We laughed so much and watched a Barbie movie (a tradition), I really missed her. I have the best best friend.

Well, I'm praying for a good morning at work!

Friday, December 6, 2013

Feeling Christmasy?

I'm listening to Kelly Clarkson's Christmas album...I'm a long time fan. Why does Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas always make me want to cry? It's not really a sad song but something about it is quite melancholy.

In other news, I've been writing short stories for a collection I'm putting together for my favorite grandma for Christmas. I just finished my 6th and I'm aiming for 10 so I have some work to do. I love writing, it just brings me so much joy. Speaking of, I'm getting really excited for Christmas!! I've been decorating here and I promise to post them next week.

I guess I'll go watch TV before my last class where I have to quickly take an exam and rush out so that I'm ready for when my dad gets here. Yeah, I'm really nervous about that and do not want to work tomorrow morning. Blahh I'm such a baby. Oh and I get to see C tonight!!!!!! I'm so excited!!!! Reunion!! 


Thursday, December 5, 2013

End of the Semester Blues

I did something very similar to this last year because, well, this time of in the semester is very stressful. So, I'm going to let loose all the things that are currently stressing me out:
  • Exams, well actually my exams aren't going to be too bad but the final paper in my Human Cultures class is not going to be fun. I have to complete it by Tuesday and I'm not looking forward to it. Also, I have once again been elected to do the most work in our group project for one of my classes. No one else stepped up so what was I supposed to do? 
  • M is picking me up on my last day (the 13th) and I'm worried it will be so crowded and busy that she won't get a parking space and so I've tried to time it so that my check out time and M's arrival time are the same so that I can check out and walk right out to her car. 
  • Work, I'm mad I scheduled myself for Saturday morning but it's done. I'm most stressed about getting back into the swing of things over break since I've been gone for over a month. Hey, that's why I scheduled myself this weekend...hmm.
In all honesty, I really do feel better typing things out and it makes me see that (a lot of times) I'm overreacting to minor things. Here's to 1 more day of classes before exam week!


Wednesday, December 4, 2013

In Memory

Baylie October
October 2010-November 2013

Rest in Peace Baylie boy, you were a good friend to everyone! 


Monday, December 2, 2013

Thanksgiving Break 2013

Here are my top 5 moments:
  1. Seeing Catching Fire with my mom and M. The movie was AWESOME, so well made and almost exactly like the book. 
  2. Thanksgiving, we had a small group this year but we had a lot of great food and played Taboo after dinner. M and I are beasts at that game. 
  3. Pie baking! After 2 years, we finally got our apple pie nearly perfect. In total we made 4 pies and they were all pretty tasty if I do say so myself. 
  4. Going to my cousins 18th birthday party and hanging out with my other cousins and seeing El. Also there was brownies and pineapple scones. Yum. 
  5. Sleeping in. I know this is kind of shallow but I ended up sleeping for 10 hours on Saturday so I clearly needed it. I'm tired right now, sigh. 
So there it is and what do you know? Only 10 more days until Christmas break, I am soooooooooo ready. Happy December!!


Thursday, November 28, 2013

Happy Thanksgiving!!

I am currently fasting for the 3 o'clock meal so I'm feeling slightly shaky but the payoff will be worth it!

Anyway, I just want to wish everyone a very happy Thanksgiving! May your day be filled with food, family and thankfulness!

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Week of Thankfulness: Day Seven

Woo! I am home for Thanksgiving and ready for some fun, it's going to be a busy 5 days but I'm excited for them.

Today I am thankful for:
-An easy time giving my speech
-That class let out early
-Chick-fil-a sandwhiches
-That I got picked up before the bad weather came
-Law and Order: SVU
-A Thanksgiving TV marathon with my sisters


Week of Thankfulness: Day Six

Today I am thankful for:
-Muffins for breakfast, again :)
-Easy classes
-My warm coat on a windy day
-The Hunger Games on Netflix


Monday, November 25, 2013

Week of Thankfulness: Day Five

Today I am thankful for:
-Getting to teach the kindergarteners at Church with M
-Muffins for breakfast
-Help preparing my final speech
-Gymnastics blogs
-A delicious dinner
-Fun watching the AMA's with my family


Week of Thankfulness: Day Four

Today I am thankful for:
-Spending time with my favorite family and helping them at a birthday party
-Hanging out with El
-Helping my mom make pumpkin chocolate chip muffins, yum
-A visit with family
-My warm bed


Week of Thankfulness: Day Three

Today, I am thankful for:
-Going home!
-A visit with my favorite grandma
-Watching Across the Universe
-Spending time with my family


Thursday, November 21, 2013

Week of Thankfulness: Day Two

Despite the fact that I'm in the worst mood ever and just spent 10 minutes crying, I will go forth with my week of thanks.

Today I am thankful for:
-M not getting hurt when she was hit by a car from behind and that the kids she nannies were also unharmed.
-Free and easy to use washers and dryers to do laundry
-Cancelled speech class
-That I completed my final speech at last!
-Cheaper by the Dozen 2 for an hour and a half of entertainment
-Einstein Bagels

Signing off now, the weekend I was looking forward to isn't looking as fun anymore and I'm just upset for reasons that aren't a big deal in the grand scheme of life but are still enough to get me down right now.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Week of Thankfulness: Day One

Instead of picking one big thing that I'm thankful for like last year, for the week leading up to Thanksgiving I'm going to list off the things I'm thankful for each day. It will be a bit less monumental but how many times can I drone on about family/friends/health/happiness??

Today I am thankful for:

-A cancelled class tomorrow and next week!
-The beginnings of my final speech
-Ibeuprofen to take away a headache
-Readily available gymnastics broadcasts to watch
-The ability to exercise and start toning myself up
-Finding a book I wanted to skim through at the bookstore
-Movies like Ice Princess to take me back to childhood :)


A Tribute

Children's author Barbara Park died over the weekend.

Junie B. Jones and a Little Monkey Business was the first book I really read on my own and enjoyed. I thought it was hilarious (and still do) and went on to read and own every book in the series by the time I was in 3rd grade.The Junie B. Jones series was really a work of art because Barbara park was so able to write from the view pint of a 6 year old all while be totally believable and incredibly funny. Here are some of my favorites of the series:

Park didn't just write these books though, she also penned one of the greatest children's books of all time, in my opinion:
 Mick Harte Was Here, addresses death head on and through the eyes of a 13 year old girl. It is funny, heart breaking and deeply moving. I first read it in 4th grade and was absolutely taken with the story of Phoebe and her brother Mick. I recently reread it and the last couple lines still give me chills.

Thank you Mrs. Park for writing my childhood and for doing it with such passion and honesty tha isn't seen a lot in children's literature.


Monday, November 18, 2013

When People are Mean

The weekend was nice, it went by really fast though so I'm hoping this week goes by quickly because I didn't feel like I got much rest and relaxation.

On Sunday M and my Grandma R and I were out running errands before my cousins birthday party and a rather unfriendly situation occurred in the parking lot. I'm not going into specifics but it never ceases to amaze me how some people are just straight up mean. I don't understand how someone can feel alright about acting like a complete jerk for no reason at all. After the incident I kept thinking of snappy comebacks I should have said or certain hand gestures I should have made. And then we got home and the house was a mess because E "Didn't feel like cleaning" and our dog Ruby hadn't been fed or taken outside because E had "Forgot". So I found myself fuming at the sink while washing dishes and you know what I did? I prayed. I prayed for those people in the parking lot because they so obviously needed God in their hearts. I prayed for my own temper to quiet down and that I wouldn't think mean thoughts of them. Sometimes I think that's all you can do, at a certain point a situation is just not worth getting that upset over because then you are just as hotheaded as the other person. This is something I needed a reminder of after the shuttle line incident.

So anyway, that's my little soapbox rant that really isn't very insightful at all and I'm certainly no expert at keeping my temper in check. If you would have heard the choice word I dropped this morning when I forgot my ipad at home you would know that it is a constant struggle :)

Happy Monday-here's to a good week!

Friday, November 15, 2013

2 Years of Musing

It has become tradition to write a "Midnovember Musings" post each year on November 15th. Here are my 2013 musings!

I am MORE than excited by the fact that C will be home in 11 days! I can't wait to see her and catch up. I also can't believe that Thanksgiving is in less than 2 weeks! I think M and I will make pies again but probably only 3 because we'll have less people.

Now onto the upcoming holiday season! I used to be all, "Why are these Christmas commercials airing so early? Why do stores already have decorations?" But now I don't mind because I really love it so much so who cares if it starts early? More time to be festive.

This weekend my mom and sister and I are going to see my uncle play with his band, it should be fun and then we have a family party on Sunday. Oh and next weekend I get to help out at a birthday party for MFF and I'm really looking forward to it :)


Midnovember Musings:
1 Year Ago
2 Years Ago

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Sucking it Up

Well, I meant to post sooner but evidently didn't get around to it. I shy away from the blog when I'm struggling with something because a lot of times I don't really want to write about it even though it does help.

Here's the thing, I really don't want to come back here next semester. I want to go somewhere closer to home so I can live there and commute. It's now feasible for me to go somewhere else and I am pretty much done with dorm life. But, it's really a bit too late to transfer for the spring semester so I'm going to have to wait for fall. Moreover, I really don't feel like dealing with all that goes with coming back home in the middle of a school year.

I've already heard whispers here and there from various relatives and acquaintances who clearly disprove of me coming home on weekends. I wish it didn't bother me and I didn't care but it does and I do. Imagine what people would say if I all of a sudden wasn't returning here after Christmas break. I shudder at the thought. I have been planning on transferring in the fall for a while now so the whole, "I can't wait that long" thing was just too last minute. Even though I'm tired of living away from home and so not looking forward to another 6 months of it...I need to suck it up. As hard as its going to be I want to make myself a promise on here that I will have a positive attitude and just get through it with as much ease as I can muster. It's just one of those things that I have to do, for myself but mostly for others. It sucks though because at first I was living on campus to prove something to myself and to challenge all the boundaries I had built. Now though, I've seen that I can do it, I've done fine and accomplished about all I can here but for my parents and for all those naysayers, the show must go on because apparently I haven't proven anything to them.

So I'm going to do it. I'm going to live in a tiny room until May when all I really want to do is be at home. I'm going to navigate a big campus every day when I long for a smaller setting. I'm going to deal with the bum roommate I have now and whoever comes through here in January when I really just want my own space and I'm going to continue to excel in my classes because that's what I'm here to do. I'll get through it and I'll get it done. There are worse things.


Thursday, November 7, 2013

Changing it Up

Yes, I have changed the title of the blog. The url is the same though so no worries...I guess I felt like this new title emulates what I write about on here really well. The journey through life and the passing of time. "Through My Eyes" was becoming a bit too generic for me. It's hard to believe that I picked that title out over 2 years ago. Also, I changed my font and I don't like it but I can't remember what the font was's a problem.

This weekend I have to work, boo hoo. I really don't mind working a four hour shift, I mean honestly it's not long. What I don't like is having to wake up at 5:45 on a Saturday. Oh well, I complain about this on here every other weekend. I actually have no other plans this weekend though so it will either be nice and relaxing or really boring.

Some new developments as of late:
  1. I've started watching Jeopardy again, I love that show and had I been an actual contestant last night, I would have won. 
  2. My roommate went a wall for a few days abut is back now...insert sad face. 
  3. I have part of my exam schedule and, wouldn't you know it, I have exams on the last possible day. 
  4. The Best Day just came on my ipad, I wonder how many times I've blogged about that song?? I still love it. 
  5. I NEVER used to pain my nails, ever. But as of this year I've been doing them every week and I've actually improved on the skill. I don't get any on my skin anymore :)
  6. I lied earlier about having no plans this weekend, for Mazy's birthday we are going to a local museum and then out to dinner and having people over our house for cake. 
  7. Mazy is not my sisters real name, it's a nickname I call her sometimes and I'm just really getting tired of this whole initial business.
That's all I have for now :) Oh and I've been "crushing it" in all my classes, seriously my best work since elementary school.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Happy Birthday Mazy!

Today is M's birthday!! Wooo! I, of course, am not home to celebrate with her but I want to write a birthday post like I have for the past 2 years.

M is three years older than I am and we've been best friends for as long as I can remember. I am SO thankful to God for giving me a big sister who perfectly emulates all of the characteristics that I want to posses. M is always working to better herself, she is constantly studying God's word and she is tries hard in all she does.

I can't believe it's been a years since M's last birthday, that fell on election day. Hallelujah to the fact that this birthday isn't marred by politics!

Saturday, November 2, 2013

A New Month

Currently, I'm sitting at the kitchen desk at home, next to the heating vent that just turned off :(. My mom and M are out boxing and I have to finish up my persuasive speech that I must deliver on Tuesday. Gulp.

I'm happy to be home and excited about this month of November. I love the holiday season and I can finally start thinking of Thanksgiving and not far from that is Christmas!! Today I'm going with my mom to get M's birthday present. I'm not entirely sure what it'll be yet but I'll figure it out.

Happy Saturday!!

Thursday, October 31, 2013

Happy Halloween!!!!

From me to you! I'm off to speech class and then M is coming to get me. Check out what I picked up for the party tonight...
2 giant sheets of rice crispy treats that we're going to use cookie cutters to make into pumpkin shapes. Super cute! And behold my Halloween nails! The purple was weird and hard to paint so they look messy. Oh well.

Happy Halloween!

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Ghosts of Halloween Past

I posted this last year and thought it was fun so here it is again, updated and revised!

6 Months: Bunny
1 Year: Daisy
2 Years: Devil
3 Years: Ballerina
4 Years: Tinkerbell
5 Years: Charmelion (the pokemon)
6 Years: Butterfly
7 Years: Medieval Princess
8 Years: Hillbilly Cowgirl (hilarious and homemade)
9 Years: Stop Light (also homemade by my dad!)
10 Years: British Royal Guard (homemade and very real looking)
11 Years: Mexican Clown (thrown together and accidentally terrifying)
12 Years: Geisha
13 Years: Black Cat (LAME)
14 Years: Headless/Pumpkin Head
15 Years: Not sure what to call it but M and I coordinated and had masks/capes/spray painted outfits, very cool.
16 Years: Repeat of the year before, costume was just too awesome.
17 Years: Cheetah
18 Years: Funky glasses with fake nose and a pumpkin beanie
19 Years: To be decided, I want to do something fun though!

There you have it, my Halloween costume past!

Monday, October 28, 2013


Yes, it's Halloween week here on my blog and fun stuff is in store for all! Today I have a picture post to show how I got festive over the weekend.

M and I traveled all over town trying to find a place that had a good selection of pumpkins and we finally found some at a grocery store. I had a little bit of a hard time picking mine because they were all a little too perfect and I like to get the funky shaped once, I finally settled on a tall and flat sided pumpkin that I named Fred. We got home and went to work carving in the middle of the kitchen. I'm kind of a pumpkin carving master in that I can get the inside of my pumpkin completely rid of goop and the sides scraped clean in a matter of minutes. I had to help both of my sisters with the inside of theirs! I carved Fred to look like he'd just been in a fight, you can't really see in the picture but I made stitches too :). M did hers classic and E didn't feel like finishing so we took over Miss Chippy and gave her some full lips and luscious eye lashes.
Fred, O'Neil and Miss Chippy

Fred chilling in the cart
After carving M and I wanted to make a nice fall dinner so it would be ready when my mom got off of work, we did not feel like going out again so we through together soup, potato dish and cornbread for ingredients we already had. The soup kind of got away from us since we didn't really realize that rice expands and added too much and then needed more broth and so on until we had enough soup to feed a small army. Ah well, leftovers.
The dining room table all set to eat!
Happy Monday!

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Oh What a Week

This week was really successful. I got an A on my psychology test and I think I did pretty well on Ethics too. I wrote 2 papers and got to hang out with my old roommate and other girls from my floor! I can't wait to go home tomorrow though, I get to babysit MFF and even though I have to work on Saturday, I'm still happy for time at home. Currently, I'm feeling sort of sick to my stomach so of course I'm beyond freaked out. Oh I pray I don't get sick

In other news I finished another by one of my favorite authors, I'll be adding it to my book page soon. My (modified) goal is to surpass the amount of books I read last year, bring it on! I also knitted myself a hat yesterday, I used a loom and it's super easy. I'm going to wear it to M's car tomorrow and surprise her with my craftiness.

Alright, I'm about to go and make some Halloween stuff to add to the card I bought C. I miss her!

Monday, October 21, 2013

This and That!

I had a busy but great weekend. I started de-cluttering and sort of redecorating my room a few weeks ago and I'm almost complete. When I'm done I'll post some before and after pictures on the blog. I also completed my final Church membership class. I just have to fill out some papers and go through the procedures and I will be recognized in front of the congregation (along with 7 other people) in the middle of December. I can't wait! I went through the classes about 4 years ago and M became a member but I wasn't really ready. I'm already looking forward to this weekend because I get to babysit MFF on Friday and maybe Saturday. The downside is I have to work Saturday morning but I'll get through it.

In other news, I'm really excited for Halloween. It's on a Thursday but M is going to come and get me so I can partake in the little party we're hosting at our house. My moms side of the family is coming (cute babies!) and El is coning! I cannot wait to see her! I couldn't miss out on that :).

This week I have a good deal to accomplish. I have to take my psychology test on Wednesday, my Ethics test on Thursday, finish a rough draft of my psychology paper, begin my persuasive speech and start reading for Human Cultures. Oh and I want to finish reading two books...

Happy Monday!!

Wednesday, October 16, 2013



Plans to change my major yet again to psychology. Plans to enroll in spring classes in one week and one day. Plans to apply to schools closer to home for next year. Plans to begin yet another new season in life.


Plans to see Claire as soon as she comes home for Thanksgiving since I'm not able to visit her this weekend. Plans to possibly go and visit her in the spring during our family vacation. Plans to go back to the same beach we went to when I was 14.


Plans to try and make some new friends. Plans to go watch SVU with some girls on my floor tonight. Plans to meet my news years goal of making 2 new friends. Plans to "put myself out there" more.


Gods plans. Gods plans for me that I don't even know yet. Gods plans that will satisfy and fulfill me if I let them. Gods plan to lead me to the place I am meant to be in life.


Tuesday, October 15, 2013

What Could Have Been and What Wouldn't Have Been

Today is pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day. I know about this primarily because my favorite family had a little boy who passed away just days after being born prematurely. I always remember their baby on this day but I also remember the two babies that my mom lost to miscarriage. One before me and one after me. My mom said that if it hadn't been for these miscarriages she would have probably ended up having four kids. So that theoretically means that I would have had another older sister and a younger sister that wasn't E. How crazy is that? It makes you wonder what kind of people those babies would have grown up to be. Maybe one of them would look like me, the oddball of the family, maybe I would be super close with them like I am with M. You know what I just realized? I wrote older sister and younger sister above...I guess I'm so used to the idea of having sisters I haven't even thought that those babies could have been boys. I' never used to want brothers but lately I totally could see myself with a little brother. It's hard to imagine my family being different than it is. As much as I sometimes wish E would go to boarding school or something, I certainly would never want life without her. It really comes back to Gods plan for our family. We were meant to have 3 girls, if those babies had lived we wouldn't have E and I might be a whole different person. If my favorite family hadn't lost their son they might not have little K. It's such a hard thing to think about, that if you hadn't lost one child you wouldn't have another.

So, today I remember baby M and I remember the two siblings that I will get to meet someday in heaven. That makes me excited for that day!

Friday, October 11, 2013

Maybe, Maybe Not

Oh happy day! There is a possibility that M and I could be going to visit Claire next weekend. It all depends on money and hotel availability but it very well may happen and I am stoked!
I miss you Claire!!

Thursday, October 10, 2013

I'm Not in Control

I always think I have everything figured out, that I know exactly what my body is going to do. Well, turns out I don't. I still feel like a cold may rear it's ugly head any morning now but I'm feeling alright on the whole. I am so thankful not to be sick right now, I have some stuff to get done today. Including an emergency laundry trip because E's band shirt accidentally ended up in my bag and she needs it clean for the football game on Friday. Oops, she was not pleased. I also get to find out how I did on my speech today and I'm hoping I got an A, I really felt good about it.

The picture at the top is of my nails (surprise surprise) my RA organized a floor manicure session that I thought I wouldn't be able to go to because I'd be sick but I wasn't so, yay! I never paint my nails and I'm pretty bad at it but I tried. It was nice getting to know the other girls on my floor, I am really hoping and praying to form a friendship with some of them.
I may blog again later on, I have something I want to write about but I don't know the outcome yet. Sorry to be cryptic.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Gymnastics Memoirs: Reviewed *Updated*

Since January I've read 3 gymnast memoirs and I loved them all in different ways. I've been wanting to review them so here goes! I'm going in the order in which I read them.

1. Grace, Gold and Glory (my leap of faith) by Gabrielle Douglas

If I'm being honest, this is probably the book I enjoyed the least. I love Gabby and I love her faith and her focus but I wish the book would have been more about her time leading up to the Olympics and her personal thoughts and less about her childhood. Now, I totally get that she would want to include her whole life into her book and not just he past few years but I think I would have liked it more had she went more in depth about her Olympic journey. I loved reading about her relationship with her host family and her troubles with being away from home. The inside cover of the book folds out into a neat poster and there are color pictures in the middle of the text.

2. Winning Balance by Shawn Johnson
I really loved this book! I think it had a great balance of life in the gym and outside. I didn't know that Shawn was a woman of faith until reading this and that really made me smile. This book takes you from her childhood to her present and you get to follow her through switching gyms to the Olympics and to Hollywood. Her Olympic experience was really well chronicled, she definitely wrote about it the best. I really was able to picture her there and understand her thoughts and feelings. I thought that the portion after the Olympics would be dull but it actually wasn't, even though she struggled to find her place outside the gym at first, she ends up feeling "balanced" once again. This book also includes pictures, which I love!

3. Off Balance by Dominique Moceanu
This book was different from the other two in that it was much more raw and Dominique's life had a lot more turmoil. This was an awesome read. I was given a look into her family history and taken all the way to her life now as a wife and mother. It was so enchanting to read about Dominique's life as a tiny 14 year old in the Olympics and yet to know that her life behind closed doors was much less glamorous. I really enjoyed the honesty in this book, I had no idea how political the sport of gymnastics was and how this became clear to Dominique when she was trying to make her comeback. Even with all the drama, there is still plenty of gymnastics in here. The Olympic portions were vivid and I liked reading about her relationships with the other girls. And, the book had pictures in it too!

4. Letters to a Young Gymnast by Nadia Comaneci
I have to be really honest, I didn't love this book. I'm not even sure if I liked it. The first half was hard to get though and to be frank, Nadia rubbed me the wrong way. It was as if she had never done anything wrong in her life and she was perfect in every way. Sometimes it even felt as though she was being rude to the reader. There wasn't a whole lot of gymnastics talk in here, there was some of course but a lot of the book was about her life in Romania. The second half or last quarter was much better than the first it was intriguing to read about Nadia's escape from her home country and a more human side of her was exposed as she wrote of her hard transition to America. I liked that we did get some history and background in this book but I had a really hard time warming up to Nada and so the book itself wasn't very enjoyable. There were no pictures!


Tuesday, October 8, 2013

The Decline

I am so angry right now because I'm getting sick again and from what I can guess, it's another cold. My second in two weeks. Literally I cannot handle having colds, they annoy me so much. I'm really not looking forward to waking up tomorrow feeling miserable but I know that's what's going to happen. I just need to get through the thick of it and hopefully feel better by Saturday because I have to work that morning and then go to our family reunion. If I'm predicting correctly, the worst of it will be tomorrow and Thursday with still some bad on Friday. So Saturday *should* find me feeling almost back to normal. I can only hope and pray!

In other news I got through my speech today without dying! I was so nervous as I really don't like speaking but today I was able to overcome it as I began talking and by the end I wasn't nervous at all!

Here's to hoping I miraculously recover

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Daydream Believer

I daydream a lot. A LOT. I love it actually. I can specifically remember my first elaborate daydream. I was 12 and recovering from surgery, I was at home waiting for my family to be ready to leave for a fair. I was laying on the couch and feeling miserable, I started to imagine, piece by piece, what my house would look like when I was older. Then I carefully decorated each of my kids rooms and finally conjured up images of everyone in my family and imagined what a day would be like. I cannot even describe the joy that this brought me, suddenly I had something to do and figuratively somewhere else to be. To this day I still daydream about that house and my family and I'll just go through holidays or normal days with my future kids. It's weird, I know it is but I love it.

I developed several other reoccurring daydreams over the years, if I just let my mind wonder it automatically goes to myself or some other unknown girl turning onstage at a dance competition, or I'll imagine a gymnast doing giants on the uneven bars. Those are just quick things I'll think of as I'm falling asleep or losing focus. For longer and more boring moments such as Ethics class (ugh) I'll imagine myself at the Olympic trials or one of my stories being made into a movie and who I would cast.

I think I'll always be a daydreamer and I don't think it's a bad thing. As long as they don't hinder everyday life (and they don't! Just Ethics...:).

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

The Best Day (and other things that make me cry)

I'm listening to Taylor Swifts, The Best Day, and tearing up. This song...seriously every time I hear it I want to cry. The song perfectly illustrates how I feel about my childhood and is so incredibly simple and sweet. Hands down my favorite TS song.

What else has been having me reach for the tissues? Last weeks episode of 19 Kids and Counting when Josh and Anna moved to Washington DC and were saying goodbye to the family. Holy cow that was sad. Also, Sister Wives?? I know that's weird but I was watching reruns and the episode when baby Truely was born and the one where they have to move. Sheesh, I never used to be such a sensitive person but now a lot of stuff seems to tug at my heart strings. Whats next? Dance Moms?? I'm about to watch some later on so we'll see.

Happy October!

Friday, September 27, 2013

Transition Months

You may remember my strong disdain for the month of February. I feel a little like that about September though not as strongly. I do not like the weather in early fall. The sort of in between weather where you never know what to wear. Jeans or shorts? Jacket or no jacket? So annoying. I'm ready to just slip on a pair of Uggs and my coat and forget about the confusion. I do enjoy this fall season and I love the crisp pumpkin kind of weather. I also really enjoy Halloween.

Needless to say, I am excited and ready for October. My moms side family reunion is next month, so is the birthday of someone special and the beginning of the real Autumn weather.

In other unrelated news, I am done rewatching Parenthood and done catching up on New Girl. Currently I am watching the best animated show of all time. Avatar the Last Airbender. I love it, love it. I have to work tomorrow morning and aren't particularly excited about it but I'm sure it will be fine.
Happy Friday!

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Be Aware!

I would be remiss if I let September pass by without a post devoted to childhood cancer awareness. This is a cause very close to my heart and I think it should be close to everyone's heart as well. Because honestly, what is more important than the welfare of our children? The reality is, kids are dying every day. 7 kids, every day from cancer. We are aware that pink means breast cancer and red means heart disease and puzzle peices are for Autism. This is all great but do many people know what this stand for?
This gold ribbon is for childhood cancer and it SHOULD be known by all. This is the number one disease killer of children and hardly anyone even knows it. People are so quick to donate to animal shelters and wildlife organizations and meanwhile-kids are losing this battle every day due to lack of treatments and funding.

So, you don't have to donate money or walk around with a sandwhich board sign. Just spread the word, let others know and if you can, give money to a reputable charity or organization because these kids matter.


Wednesday, September 25, 2013


That's my new name for my hip issues. I don't know what started it but I've been having a hard time just walking today. Bad.

I feel a lot better as far as this stupid cold goes. I just paused to drink cranberry ginger ale through a straw (the drink I over consume during illnesses). Today was an alright day, the problem is that my floor of going to dinner tonight and I fear I might not go again because of the hipssues. I hate seeming flaky for not going but honestly I have to walk slowly and pigeon toed on one side if I want to avoid the pain. I have an exam in Ethics tomorrow and I'm seriously worried, the class is TERRIBLE, oh my gosh, so boring and so pointless. Why would anyone chose to study ethics or philosophy or anything like it??? That's mean to those who like that type of thing but I just don't get it and I can't pretend to.

In other news I'm adding My Sisters Keeper to my book list. Yes, this is cheating because I've read it before but I read it again so whatever. I do however have 2 books awaiting me, that almost never happens!! My new goal is just to read more books than last year and I'll consider it a success.

I have been rewatching Parenthood for the past month in preparation for season 5 which starts tomorrow. I have an episode and a half left of season 4 so I'm totally right on target. It's funny how the second time I watched the show I totally changed opinions on characters. I do love TV :). Wow, I've missed blogging like this. It reminds me of last year and my dance saga and all that fun stuff. Speaking of fun roommate has decided to move in with another girl on the floor. Did I find this out from her? Nope. My RA told me, seriously though this fool that I've been living with doesn't even have the decency to tell me shes planning on moving out? Good riddance, I've been nothing but nice to you. Yikes. I'm sounding kind of mean. I first thought this would mean I'd have my own room *three cheers!*, but there is a girl who wants to move in. I'm going to talk to the head of my building tomorrow to see if I can just stay alone. I do NOT want to go through another bad roommate.
That was nice and long! Happy hump day!


Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Under the Weather

Very Quick Weekend Recap:
Friday: Eat pizza and stay home while everyone else attends high school football game. Watch a lot of TV.
Saturday: Drive 5 hours round trip to pick E up from a college she was supposed to be performing with in her marching band. Go out to eat at favorite restaurant with M and see Prisoners. Get terrified.
Sunday: Wake up sick with fever and beginnings of a cold. Miss Church, watch lots of TV, sleep a ton.
Monday: Still sick, miss school, stay home alone and watch lots of TV. Eat delicious home cooked meal.

I returned to school this morning, the fever is gone but I sill have a nasty cold. I really hope I feel better soon, I think today should be my last day feeling so awful. I hate colds and I hate any moisture in my nose so I'm pretty sure I seriously disrupted my Ethics class by all the nose blowing. Tonight I will read, watch TV and hopefully rest easy. I always have some trouble sleeping with a cold (just had to pause to attend to an awful nose itch and subsequent eye watering and dripping).

Oh! It's officially fall, I'm ready for the season and am already anticipating the holiday fun!! 


Thursday, September 19, 2013

Wallowing Day

Here's what happened at the hip doctor yesterday:

The pain I've been experiencing is muscular and I'll need to do some stretches to fix it. Also, I have something called Acetabular Displasia which means that I'll for sure need hip replacement or some other type of surgery, not a question of if but when.

So, today I'm wallowing. I'm really upset about this, it feels like I have all of this crap thrusted upon me and I hate it. Short, bad eyes, bad back, bad hips. I'm angry and I don't want to have to have such a serious surgery nor do I want pain and arthritis. I just want to live my life!!!!! SO, as much as I wish this would go away, it isn't going to. It will, in fact get worse and that's the part I hate the most. Now I'm just waiting for the pain to come, all the while knowing that every physical activity is putting more strain on my freaking messed up hips. The doctor was really nice, he was actually kind of awesome and I'm glad I picked him but I always leave doctors appointments with so many question that I didn't think to ask during the 15 minutes that the doctor is actually in the room. I have to go back and see him in 6 months but I wish it were sooner. I feel scared and nervous about this whole thing. I hate this. I hate it.

And that's why I bought season 4 of Parenthood on Amazon ans skipped Ethics class and that's why I'll be sitting in my room eating cheese and crackers instead of going to the floor dinner. Tomorrow I'm sure I'll have a bright and sunny post on how this is all fine and dandy-that's great, I expect it.

But today I'm wallowing.

Monday, September 16, 2013

Oh, My Love

Back in May after school was over and before I started back at work, my dad enlisted me to help him on a little project. He had bought a groupon to get 24 of our home movie video tapes converted into DVD's. I LOVE our home movies and was happy to help because the only way we were able to watch them was by hooking up our old video camera to our TV. So we picked out the allowed number or tapes and sent them away. The company, called South Tree, promised to have them back in 4-6 weeks. Yay! I thought maybe just in time for vacation. Wrong. When they weren't back by the end of July my dad got nervous and looked up some reviews for South Tree, turns out they are notorious for extended time periods and choppy quality. At that point I just wanted our originals back at least!

Finally, on Saturday we received our package in the mail and were so excited, we watched about 5 over the weekend. The quality was alright but out of order chronologically. Ah well. My very favorite video is this one when my mom is taping and M, my dad and I are dancing around in the living room. I was about 2 or 3 and Unchained Melody came on. I motioned for my dad to pick me up and then he danced with me in the air. It was so cute. I have the best memories from childhood and I have only my parents (and God!) to thank.


Thursday, September 12, 2013

Gymnastics Memoirs: Reviewed

Since January I've read 3 gymnast memoirs and I loved them all in different ways. I've been wanting to review them so here goes! I'm going in the order in which I read them.

1. Grace, Gold and Glory (my leap of faith) by Gabrielle Douglas
If I'm being honest, this is probably the book I enjoyed the least. I love Gabby and I love her faith and her focus but I wish the book would have been more about her time leading up to the Olympics and her personal thoughts and less about her childhood. Now, I totally get that she would want to include her whole life into her book and not just he past few years but I think I would have liked it more had she went more in depth about her Olympic journey. I loved reading about her relationship with her host family and her troubles with being away from home. The inside cover of the book folds out into a neat poster and there are color pictures in the middle of the text.

2. Winning Balance by Shawn Johnson
I really loved this book! I think it had a great balance of life in the gym and outside. I didn't know that Shawn was a woman of faith until reading this and that really made me smile. This book takes you from her childhood to her present and you get to follow her through switching gyms to the Olympics and to Hollywood. Her Olympic experience was really well chronicled, she definitely wrote about it the best. I really was able to picture her there and understand her thoughts and feelings. I thought that the portion after the Olympics would be dull but it actually wasn't, even though she struggled to find her place outside the gym at first, she ends up feeling "balanced" once again. This book also includes pictures, which I love!

3. Off Balance by Dominique Moceanu
This book was different from the other two in that it was much more raw and Dominique's life had a lot more turmoil. This was an awesome read. I was given a look into her family history and taken all the way to her life now as a wife and mother. It was so enchanting to read about Dominique's life as a tiny 14 year old in the Olympics and yet to know that her life behind closed doors was much less glamorous. I really enjoyed the honesty in this book, I had no idea how political the sport of gymnastics was and how this became clear to Dominique when she was trying to make her comeback. Even with all the drama, there is still plenty of gymnastics in here. The Olympic portions were vivid and I liked reading about her relationships with the other girls. And, the book had pictures in it too!

I hope to possibly read Nadia Cominici's book soon and possibly Kerri Strugs, we'll see!

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

12 Years Ago

Here's a repost of the post I wrote 2 years ago to honor 9/11

I actually wrote this last year but it somehow got deleted. So I revised the title and decided to repost it on the 11th anniversary:

I was 7 years old. Sitting innocently in my 2nd grade classroom when the first tower was hit. The teachers did not want to scare us so they didn't tell us what was going on. Strange things happened that day though and it's amazing what a kid can pick up on. A lot of my classmates were getting taken out of school, one was pulled right from our line on our way to music class. The teachers held hushed conversations. I knew something was going on.

I just didn't know what.

When my sister and I got home my mom met us at the front door and we sat outside on the front steps. She told us a simplified version of what had happened that day. I did not understand, I don't even think I cared. It was like hearing about a story or movie where a bunch of people I didn't know died. I didn't get the magnitude of it, not for years did it hit me emotionally.

September 11th 2001 was the first major historical event that I lived through. It will be a memory that I will never forget. It's weird to think that the kids that weren't born or were babies at the time (like my little sister) never knew a world without the fear of terrorists or the war. I'm thankful that our country was somewhat peaceful for the first 7 years of my life.

For the past 5 school years in my history classes when the anniversary of the attacks comes around we watch a documentary or a TV special on the subject. When I watch these people talking about their loved ones that died or when I hear these phone conversations, actually recordings of people saying goodbye, it just gets to me. I can't imagine what was going through their minds when the realized that they had no chance, that they were going to die. The fear, the terror, the panic. I'm not brave or strong enough to even think about how I would handle that. I know that I would be praying madly and I know that the fact that I have God watching over me would help but I don't's just so unimaginable.

When I think about those brave passengers that overpowered the terrorists, I'm overcome with pride for the citizens of our country. That we have people that are so willing to sacrifice themselves to save more lives. Their bravery will never be forgotten.

Lets remember, today and always. September 11th 2001.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

The Buzz

Hey there! The title of this post is paying homage to my favorite phrase, whenever I text anyone or call, instead of saying "Whats up?" I always ask, "Whats the buzz?"
Everything has been going good lately. My classes are a bit dull but things are looking up. Here's some stuff to share:
  • C's birthday is tomorrow! She's going to be 18 and I won't be able to celebrate with her. I did send her a card though and I'm hoping it gets to her in time. 
  • I have a Dinosaurs test tomorrow and I'm semi nervous about it. I'm not really interested in the subject so I have a hard to being enthused. 
  • I have a doctors appointment next week for hip pain that I've been having for awhile. I (of course) think it's a tumor. 
  • The Dance Moms finale is on tonight and I'm kind of glad the season is over. I'm getting tired of the whole plotline formula. 
  • Abby's Ultimate Dance Competition is also on tonight and I'm excited for that. I love competition shows. 
  • I'm getting excited for the gymnastics world championships at the end of this month. So fun! 
  • M is coming early on Friday to go to my classes with me, I'm really looking forward to it. 
  • I'm re-reading My Sisters Keeper. I discovered that book in 9th grade and have skimmed through it probably dozens of times. This time I'm going to really read it cover to cover. 
  • I want to do a book review post soon, maybe even tonight!
Thanks for sticking with me!

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Up and At 'Em

Alrighty, my blue mood has come and gone since my last post. I just haven't felt much like blogging. I've had hip pain on and off for about 3 to 4 years and I am finally getting that checked out in two weeks. I wish it could be sooner but I have a test in "Dinosaurs" that is preventing that. Oh well, two weeks goes by rather quickly these days.

I had a really nice long weekend, of course it's always hard to get back down to business but I try. I am going to suck it up and make the best of whatever comes my way this semester. I think I'll shoot for a single room come January but until then I will tough it out. I can do it! In other news Dance Moms season is finally ending, it's felt like eternity! But I am obligated to watch...and season 2 of Abby's Ultimate Dance Competition is back so that's something to look forward to. I'm on the lookout for a new book to read as always.

That's all for now, I won't take long breaks again. I really like blogging :)

Monday, August 26, 2013


Everything is really hard right now. Well, my classes are great but everything else is not. I, once again, cannot seem to really find my place here. I feel like I'm over it...I don't know what to do. My roommate is closed off and talks on the phone 24/7 and I feel like I continually fail in the social department even though I'm always friendly. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of having to be away from my family and home in order to go to school. I'm tired of feeling like a failure and a disappointment for not making friends. I'm tired of comparing my life to everyone elses on facebook. I'm tired of constantly longing for the past yet aching for a brighter future. I don't want to be here right now at all. I want my old roommate back or my own room like I had my first semester. I'm wanting to be done with the is whole campus-life thing. I'm obviously no good at it. Maybe this just isn't me.

But then, a part of me remembers my first semester last year and smiles. Because for a while there, I had a really good thing going. I lived alone but I spent many nights peacefully doing artwork or schoolwork and not worrying about someone else keeping me up at night or waking me in the morning. I remember the weekly TV nights with K and my carefully scheduled out days. I remember feeling content even though I didn't really accomplish what I'd hoped for. I really liked it then. I studied hard and spent evenings leisurely reading or watching netflix. It was good. But...I still feel like that time was even a failure. I didn't make a single long lasting friendship. I am so sick of the pressure that is put on me and that I put on myself. I don't know how to continue on feeling as if I will never get this social breakthrough.

In high school I went the first two years with no meaningful friendships and then for junior and senior year I had the best group of friends. I felt appreciate and safe and not nervous about how I acted. Those two years were a huge blessing from God as I had finally found a place to fit in. But freshmen and sophmore year were rather lonely in school and yet I came home to a houseful of people who loved me and who I could talk to and hang out with. Here, I come back to a tiny room with no one and yes, it makes me sad.

Right now I just feel so dejected that I don't even feel like I want to have the energy or effort to "put myself out there", I have done it so many times and gotten nowhere. I will continue to pray for "someone" as I have been this past summer. I've been asking God for a good friend or a good relationship. I have to really trust in Him right now that everything will fall in to place. It's so hard but He is with me through it all.

I don't know what this year is going to look like and I have no crystal ball. I've just got to go along blindly and hope to catch my footing.


Sunday, August 25, 2013

Summer Goals Revisited

It's that time again! It's seems like hardly any time has passed since I was going through last years goals...

1. Grow in my faith and as a person (x)
I think I have grown in my faith some, I've certainly had to give a lot of stress and worry to God. I think that there have been some very convicting messages at Church over the summer months that I've learned a lot from.

2. Gain patience and improve with E ()
Although I think I did gain some patience, there is a lot of turmoil in my relationship with E. Initially I thought that the two of us were going along well but apparently she felt the opposite. Honestly at this point I don't even want to be around her because she has absolutely zero respect for anyone else and only cares about herself. It's sad but in order to avoid conflict I really have to not even try to talk to her. I really hope this improves but that's just the way it is now.

3. Get a good tan (x)
I got a lot of sun during vacation and although initially I had a bit of sunburn, it definitely turned into a straight up tan. I didn't get a whole bunch of opportunities to go outside and swim because the weather stunk but I tried to take advantage of the nice days. 

4. Spend a lot of time outside, swimming, biking, etc. (x)
As stated above, the weather is what prevented me form doing this but I did it as much as I could. I swam a lot on vacation (a lot!!) and I biked when it was nice and walked my dog a lot. 

5. Develop a friendship (x)
Ok, this one is kind of cheating because it's not a friendship yet but I'm really hoping it will turn into one. I met a very nice girl that lives next door to me in my dorm building at school. I'm really hoping and praying that we could become friends this year. 

6. Read at least five books (x)
Well, I just finished this one today! I spent more time not reading that I did reading because as usual I had a hard time finding books. But, this week I powered through 2 memoirs, getting me to my goal! Here's what I read: 
Wonder by R.J Palacio
Report Card by Andrew Clements 
The Promise of Stardust by Pricille Sibley
Winning Balance by Shawn Johnson 
Off Balance by Dominique Moceanu

7. Have a perfect day (x)
Although it would be impossible to have an actual perfect day, I had two that were pretty close! 
Read about them here and here.

8. Do one thing crazy ()
Although I biked up insane hills to our new local library and nearly died afterward...I'm not sure that would be classified as crazy. Nothing truly insane was done this summer. Boo.

9. Improve my skin (x)
Although I still have occasional blemish breakout, my skin really did clear up. Of course I am currently nursing a mean chimple (chin pimple) but I think as I'm older the acne is phasing out. 

10. Witness to someone ()
I sadly didn't seize an opportunity to do this. 

11. Take lots of pictures (x)
Using the new camera I got for Christmas, I documented our summer quite well! 

12. Eat healthy ()
I did eat healthy meals and snacks but every day I had a desert item. Literally every day. Ice cream, cake, cookies and more. I don't even feel bad about it. 

13. Go out of my comfort zone a few times (x)
I did this! My germ fears were lessened and on other events. 

14. Join a Bible study (x)
My mom and sister and I joined a study on Proverbs this summer. We had some great discussions and I really enjoyed it. 

15 Have fun! (x)
This summer was a good one, I felt like I did a lot of stuff and spent a lot of time with my family. I am thankful for these past 3 and a half months and can't believe how fast they've gone!

Goals Accomplished: 11/15


Thursday, August 22, 2013

Anticipation and Anxiousness

Though I won't be staying in my room until Sunday night, I move my things into my dorm today. I have a lot of pent up anxiety and anticipation about this year. There are a lot of things that are stressing me out big time so I really can't wait until everything is sorted out. Hopefully that will be done today. I am not nervous about the academic portion of school, never have been. It's always other things that seem to get me down. I would hate for any other stressors to get in the way of school stuff.

I realize that I absolutely avoid this blog when I'm stressed out or upset. I'd like to go back to using this as a place where I can write about whatever is bothering me, that really seemed to help last year. Ideally I would like to post every day until Monday, we will see!


Friday, August 16, 2013

Fun Festivities and Family Time

Yesterday morning M woke me up around 8:30 and we watched Full House together. As corny as it is, I'll always love that show! E went to band camp so it was just M, me and my dad going down to this festival that happens every year about 20 minutes away. My dads cousins daughter and her daughter El (who M has been watching) live right near the fest so we hung around there and then walked down the road to watch the little parade they were having. A couple other family members were there and we all had a good time watching El marvel at the possession and take pictures with various peoples iphones. Afterward we went back to the house and ate delicious and healthy food! I had a sandwich, pasta salad and fruit. We sat on the front porch and chatted. Our cousin K was there, she's a few years older than me and so sweet. We all played on El's slide. Later on a few of us walked down to the festival, El got totally overwhelmed so we didn't stay too long. I was fine with that because it was so crowded. Another one of my dads cousins came by with tons of cookies and cheesecake. We stayed a little longer and then had to leave so my dad could get E and M and I could get my mom.

While mom worked out M and I hung out at the bookstore and I read some old books from childhood. Love. We walked around a clothing store when my mom returned and then came home to relax. I was super excited because the P&G gymnastic national championships started last night and I thoroughly enjoyed every second!

It was a great day!

Monday, August 12, 2013


At this moment my mom and sisters are laughing hysterically because E just got her marching band uniform and it's rather funny. Anyway, over the weekend I got to hang out with C, watch fireworks and go with my mom and favorite aunt to a fitness challenge type festival. Today I worked and hung out with Mallory and El at the playground.

I think that as we get older, Claire and I actually become even closer. I think its an accumulations of so many shared experiences and as we mature I think we realize how special our friendship is. C means so much to me that I literally don't know what I'd do without her. I told her that I can only imagine feeling so strongly about someone if I was marrying them or they were my child. I know that sounds really extreme, and it is. I'm obviously not in love with Claire and she certainly isn't my offspring but we really do have a special bond. I know with all my heart that we'll always be friends. I know we'll be in each others weddings and our kids will play together all the time. This year, she's going to college in another state. She is literally getting to pursue her dream and I'm really proud of her. I'll miss her but I know she's doing something that she loves.

In other news, the chain to my beloved cross necklace broke so I haven't been wearing it. It's odd to reach up to my neck expecting to fiddle with it and finding nothing there! Hopefully I can get a new chain soon. I have a lot of back to school shopping to get done.


Monday, August 5, 2013

First Weekend in August!!

Alright, lets get down to it!

Friday: I had to work Friday from 7-3pm. They were really short staffed for the next shift so they wanted whoever was there to do all the vital signs for their assigned rooms. Let me tell you, I think I did 50 vitals signs in my 8 and a half hour shift. Fun stuff! Afterward my mom and sisters went to the mall but I opted to chill at home. I watched some ANTM and Quints by Surprise :)

Saturday: In the morning my mom went to work out and my sisters and I hung out a nearby bookstore/coffee shop. I ate a muffin and read People magazine. Before going home we stopped at Target to buy a gift for my cousin B's daughters 3rd birthday party. At the party I got to see my cousins and all the cute babies. Love it! Watching B's daughter opening gifts was so fun. We all went to a minor league baseball game after and I had a nice time eating ice cream, chatting and watching fireworks.

Sunday: My mom had to work so my dad and sisters and I headed to church. After they had a picnic where the members pack lunches (and food is provided for guests) and eat together. My dad had to work at home and E didn't want to come so M and I went ourselves. Our favorite uncle ended up staying with us and we shared our food with him. Once we got home we had to drive E to my cousins and walk our dog. Then we picked her back up, stopped at the grocery store and picked up my mom from work. When we finally returned home some of our family was already there since we were having them over for dinner. I made a nice natural salad.and my dad made AWESOME eggplant. I enjoyed eating together and having a discussion on GM foods...ha. Uncle D brought pies for desert! Yum. Later on M and I watched some Kid Nation before bed.

Today (Monday): I went with M to her babysitting job with my cousins daughter El. We chilled and watched Full House before El woke up and then we all played before leaving to come to our house. I went with my mom on a walk and then all of us girls went to an outdoor outlet mall so I could buy some new jeans. It was a success! I got two new pairs and a shirt. El had a great time feeding the ducks and riding in her stroller. Later on we have Bible study and it's our last one :(

Oh and I've been watching a lot of gymnastics on youtube lately, I am obsessed and can't wait for nationals!

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Olympic Rewind

Oh how I wish the summer Olympics happened every year. I follow all of the gymnasts from the USA team on instagram and yesterday they all posted pictures from last year when the team won gold. I saved my recordings from all the women's gymnastics events and rewatched them many times. The hours of footage took up so much space on my DVR so I had to delete them knowing that it was also online. Unfortunately, NBC took it off of their site and only certain portions are on youtube. I do watch what I can but I really want to see the exact same broadcast that I saw on NBC but it seems to be nowhere.

Alas, I'm reposting my Olympic Women's Gymnastics Reviews in honor of the one year anniversary. I am so excited to tune into the P&G Competition in a few weeks and the World Championships in September. But I am most excited of all for the Rio Olympics in 2016!

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Workflow, Then and Now

I so wish I had been blogging during the time I began my internship at the hospital in February of 2012. My first day was a complete disaster. The NA (nurse assistant) that I was working with was less than nice, a nurse told me, "Welcome to Hell," when I said told her I was new and I nearly got lost trying to find my way to the locker room and had to be shown the way by a kind Housekeeper. I cried, hard, in the locker room as I changed into my clothes. I fell into a routine of dreading work, while telling people I loved it. In the midst of this I enjoyed blissful dinner breaks where I would meet up with 4 other girls from my medical class at school who were also interning in different parts of the hospital. We laughed and shared food, I remember thinking (I'm very sentimental) that I was so enjoying this time with my friends in the hospital atrium. I even said something along the lines of, "This time will go by so fast, I bet we'll be sitting here on our last day in May and thinking it flew by," Still, my first weeks were even tough, I was never sure if I was doing things right, the nurses didn't seem to care I was even there. I was only working back in Labor and Delivery where I rarely had any patient contact. I would hang out by the OR's just to catch a glimpse of a baby fresh from a C-section.

As I said earlier, time flew by and today things are so different. I am now hired as a NA and I get to work in Postpartum and L&D, depending on the day. I trained a new aid today and didn't even have to pretend to know what I was talking about because I really did. I have seen 2 C-sections and 3 regular deliveries. I laughed with other workers that once seemed standoffish, I chatted with the NA that had made my first day miserable, I had earned her respect and she earned mine. I now work 8 hour days instead of 4 or 5. I take vital signs, I know how to set up baby cribs and OR's, I assist nurses, I know all the lingo and medical jargon. I hold babies sometimes. Two of my friends were hired as well, one in my unit so I get to see her sometimes and one in EKG who I have yet to run into. I eat with my mom when it isn't busy and in the break room if it is. My job isn't easy but it's rewarding and it has plenty of variety and I can honestly say that I really do like it.

 It was worth the crying and the anxiety. It was even worth me wearing scrubs that are 3 sizes too big.

Monday, July 29, 2013

A July List

  1. The weather has been extremely undesirable here, that kind of in between temperature that you don't know what to wear in. At least yesterday was sunny, today was rainy and gloomy. 
  2. I spent the day with M and our cousins daughter who she nannies, we went to the mall and to the library. 
  3. I have Bible study in about 45 minutes, I'm looking forward to discussing our homework wit the group! 
  4. Everything has FINALLY been sorted out with work, scheduling was a nightmare but it's over! 
  5. My "healthy eating" has not been going well this summer, honestly I think I've had a desert every day for the past few months. Bad. 
  6. My family and I got to volunteer at an awesome event at our church this past Saturday, I loved it and felt a great sense of accomplishment when we were done. 
  7. I have a dentist appointment tomorrow, I expect my gums to bleed as always. The ladies there have no mercy. 
  8. I hadn't seen a whole lot of C lately (because of conflicting work schedules) but last week I got to see her almost every day! I missed hanging out with my best friend. 
Happy Monday!

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Just Me, Ruby and God

Sorry for the lack of posts, I haven't much felt like writing. But, never fear as I will prevail!

Yesterday I took my dog on a walk by myself. This really is no small feat as I have such a huge fear of being kidnapped. It's only recently that I've felt comfortable enough to walk my neighborhood alone. For the first half of my walk I was a bit on edge but as I began a bit of a new route I decided to use my solitude to pray. I prayed for the salivation of many friends, I prayed for a new acquaintance who is dying and for his family, I prayed for my cousins baby, I prayed for the school year ahead, I prayed about scheduling issues at work, I prayed in thanks for many things, I prayed all the way home. Typically I pray before bed and I often fall asleep in the middle of my prayers or say them rushed because I'm tired. I know it is so important to pray whole hardheartedly and I'm so happy that I got the chance to do this yesterday. I think I'll have to come up with a quiet time routine soon, where I would get to read my Bible and pray without avail.


Thursday, July 18, 2013

The Worst Day

Lars is broken again. That's why I haven't posted...I really feel as though I need to write about this event before too much time passes. Here goes.

Last Saturday, July 13th, we were still on vacation. Earlier in the day my favorite aunt and uncle and my own family had gone to see a lighthouse. That evening we were celebrating my cousin K's upcoming birthday. My mom, sisters and I went to the general store for some brownie mix. On our way back we saw an ambulance. My mom remarked how it wast the first we'd seen all vacation. It turned down one of the roads leading to our house and my mom started to panic. She was thinking of my 87 year old grandma and we all made fun of how she always assumes the worst. When the ambulance didn't go directly down our road, she eased up and we headed inside. I told E to wait outside and I would meet her back with my camera because I wanted to do a house video tour. I ran up to the top level to get the camera and noticed my grandma rushing down the outside steps. The house had an elevator so this was unusual, I went out sliding door and asked, "Here grandma, let me help you"

"Somethings wrong," she said in a worried voice, "Somethings happened at the beach" I took her arm and we began to walk over the dunes. At this point I wasn't extremely worried, I tend to have the "This won't happen to me" complex a lot. My grandma was worried though she said she'd seen my aunt running back and forth from the house and that she thought it was someone in our family who was in trouble. When we walked over the hill and I saw the beach in front of me I knew that something serious was happening. The usually calm and private beach was swarmed with people. There were two ambulance vehicles. My whole family (except for my sisters and mom who had no idea this was even going on yet and my aunt and uncle m who were out) were standing in a line looking to the ocean. It was so eerie, I'll never forget it. I was slowly making my way down the stairs with my grandma and she told me to go ahead and she'd be fine but I didn't leave her because I was afraid she would fall.

I noticed that my cousin Rob was there and immediately thought, "Oh, it's not someone in our family, Rob was the only one who was even going in the ocean". I approached the crowd with my grandma and asked, "What's going on?" My cousin K said, in a soft voice I'll never forget, "Um, your dads in there"

I asked what had happened, starting to cry right away. Apparently he had went in to aid three boys who were trapped out by the waves. He had tried to bring them boogie boards but ended up getting in trouble himself. Rescuers had gone in but they too had been unable to return to shore,. Thoughts raced through my head, I honestly thought my dad would surely drown. It was the worst feeling in the world, I can't even describe it. I thought of how my mom would never be able to handle it and how I wouldn't go back to school. I was crying and saying a lot of things I can't remember and my aunt C was comforting me. At one point I realized I was still holding my camera, I dropped it with some sense of bitterness, thinking that nothing mattered anymore. I asked my aunt, "Can we pray?" she said of course we could but I couldn't even form a thought so I asked her to pray for us. I begged God silently to bring my dad back safely.

After a few minutes I said, "I can't do this!" and I meant that there was no possible way I could handle standing on the beach while my dad drowned and they carried his body way I could do it. My aunt said, "Look! They're bringing your daddy in!" I saw a jet ski circling around but they brought in the other boys first and I started to panic, where is my dad??? Finally they brought him nearly to shore but let him off before it got to shallow I was worried that he wouldn't be able to swim the few yards in but he did. Behind me I heard my mom and sisters rushing toward the scene. I ran to E first, "They got him out, they got him out" I said. Everyone was crying.

The four people they'd pulled out of the water were in a little huddle with paramedics. Everyone was alright just tired of course and it was a while before they were released. I was still crying from the release of emotion and pure relief that my dad was ok.

Eventually we all walked back to the house and sat in the big living room, my dad rested like a big hero and everyone told their account of what had happened. It was the only time we'd all gathered in that room.

This was really the scariest thing that's ever happened to me and I am so thankful to God for being so merciful and that everyone was alright.

I'll update more later-hopefully on a fixed Lars! (My laptop ;)