Monday, December 31, 2012

2012: A Year in Review

Dance Moms premiers for season 2. I write my last post for nearly six months! I celebrate my moms birthday and take my very last set of high school exams.

I begin work as an intern at the hospital alongside L and some other high school friends. Valentines day comes and goes, my sister and I make predictions and bet on the Oscars. The Artist wins best picture and I am sorely disappointed. I get really tired of winter...and make my final college choice.

I begin to prepare for my senior project and scramble around for signatures and recommendations. E turns 13 and I buy her 13 presents and take her to see The Hunger Games.

My last full month of high school starts and I am both sad and excited. My doggy turns 4 and I buy her a new collar! I celebrate Easter with my family. I turn 18 and sister and L throw me a surprise birthday dinner at my favorite restaurant!

I have my last day of high school and document it extensively with pictures. I begin my senior project at the elementary school that I used to attend. I receive my cap and gown. I go to weekly meetings back at high school to check in with my adviser/favorite English teacher. I go to prom! Senior project ends and I work on my final presentation that I must present in front of the committee. I go to my senior banquet and literally have the best time of my life.

I graduate and return to blogging! I return to work as a full fledged Nurse Assistant! I write my summer goals. I have the best time at my graduation party!

Vera Bradley scares the heck out of me! I celebrate the fourth of July at the pool with M and go see Brave that night. I work at my churches VBS. I work...a lot. My family and I go on vacation. I go to my favorite amusement park with L and C! I begin to really worry about college. I do my own coverage on the Olympics.

I have a very funny day. I start to give my college worries to God. I get my hair cut...a little bit. I decide to overcome a habit. I read and review The Hunger Games. I attend my cousins wedding. As summer comes to an end I evaluate and revisit my summer goals. I move into my college dorm. I start Jazz class and the saga begins.

I experience my first fire alarm. C turns 17 on the day that our nation remembers September 11th. My eyes start to give me trouble. I spend an agonizing weekend alone. I begin Bible Study on campus. My relationship with God grows.

I go home for the weekend and reunite with L and C. After much thought I decide to change my major. I write and celebrate my 100th blog post! I decorate my room for fall. I anticipate Taylor Swifts new album and buy it right away!! For the first time I write about my back. I ace my anatomy midterm!! To relieve stress, I begin doing art and right before Halloween I decide to eat healthier.  I celebrate my half birthday and enjoy Halloween with my family.

This is the month in which I blog more than every before! I get extremely annoyed with all of the political drama, and decide that I despise politics. On election day M turns 22. I overcome my habit after three months! I make hundreds of flashcards and nearly drown in them. I do week of thanks and go home for a memorable Thanksgiving.

I have my much anticipated eye appointment but don't leave with many answers. I buy my tickets to Taylor Swifts concert!! I go home for break and slack on blogging a bit. The world doesn't end on December 21st. I get sick on Christmas Eve but still manage to have a good holiday.

So that's it! My 2012.
Here's to 2013!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Christmas Recap

Wooo, it's been a week since I posted! Better late than never though, here's my recap:

Christmas Eve I woke up sick...with a cold. I was SO mad I could barely think straight. I had tried everything in my power to avoid getting sick. Oh well. I relaxed around the house until about 1 when we had to start getting ready to go over my aunt and uncles house.

When we arrived, most people were already there because we're always late! My moms side of the family has grown tremendously over the past 5 years so there were a lot of people on the whole. I greeted everyone and ate some appetizers, actually I ate too much because I wasn't even hungry for dinner. After dinner we went to the Christmas Eve service at our church, it's always such a nice time. We lit candles and sang carols. We went back to my aunts house afterward and opened gifts and the adults did their gift exchange. I really wasn't feeling well so I hung out upstairs for awhile.

\When we got home I snuggled on my favorite couch for awhile and then went down to bed. I had no trouble sleeping because I was SO tired and didn't feel well. I woke up feeling slightly worse, as I had expected. I've had enough colds to recognize the pattern. My older sister and I went to my younger sisters room to hang out with her before we went to open presents with my parents downstairs.

Christmas morning was such  nice time, my family has been very blessed this year. I especially loved giving the gifts that I had bought. I like giving much better than receiving. After a few hours some family stopped over but my mom and I couldn't really visit because she still had to finish up her project for the gift exchange at my uncles house that day. On my dads side of the family we make gifts for a gift exchange, everyone is pretty creative so they always come out really cool. My mom was making this awesome mirror and finished it just in time.

When we arrived at my uncles, I greeted my family and chatted for awhile. Then it was time for dinner, my sisters and I ate at the "kids table" with my four other cousins. None of us are really kids but oh well. After dinner my aunt brought over a set of jacks and I played for awhile, I got up to "sevensies" now I want my own set!

The gift exchange was nice, I ended up with just what I wanted, a framed picture that my cousin had taken on her trip to Ireland, it is really breathtaking. After the exchange we opened up these predictions/goals that we had all written the year before. Not many of them had come true, but mine had. It was all about being happy in college and blah blah blah. We wrote new ones and I can't wait until next year to read those, time will fly by just like it always does.

Everyone was really tired so we didn't end up playing a game or singing songs. I went straight to bed when I got home. It was a very nice Christmas but I just wish I hadn't been sick!


Sunday, December 23, 2012

Christmas Stress

I really don't like to use those two words in a sentence together because Christmas should not be causing stress. Alas, it is. Number one, I am fearful of catching the cold that it seems EVERYONE has. Number two, I still have quite a few things errands to run before tomorrow. Number three, I have to make 4 chocolate pies with M tonight. Number four, I'm really tired because I haven't been sleeping well. basically I just want to get all of this resolved so that I can enjoy this awesome holiday. On the bright side, I finished the story that I've been working for months. It's long and I'm really proud of it. I'm giving it to my favorite grandma for Christmas.

Signing off now, the computer is giving me a headache.

Friday, December 21, 2012

Holly Jolly

Wooo! I had such a nice time visiting my old high school today. There has been a lot of renovation since I left so it looked quite different but I still go to see all the familiar faces. As much as I really do like college, I miss high school!

I'm not sure what is on the agenda tonight but I'm guessing that we'll probably watch a Christmas movie or two :). Tomorrow is a busy busy day, M and I are going to finish up some Christmas stuff, visit a bookstore and then go see a movie. Later on, we have a family party to go to. I'm really looking forward to it.

I woke up this morning with a little tickle in my throat, I am praying that it doesn't turn into a cold...oh please!! I'm also nervous about getting the stomach flu (as always) and I've been dealing with  headaches a lot more than usual lately. I just want to be well for Christmas Eve and day!!

Here's a little glimpse of Christmas at my house:

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

A Little Christmas Cheer

Wooo I did almost all my shopping today, I still have a few more things to get done but I feel pretty satisfied. I also did all my wrapping, which took way longer than I expected. I really like to wrap but after a while it gets redundant.

I am definitely aware that I blog less while I'm at home, I think I'm just busier here and I don't have as much time to sit in front of my laptop. Yesterday was super busy, I did some housework with my mom and then spent a ton of time organizing our wrapping paper bin. Then our cousin came over and we hung out for a few hours. THEN I went to E's school event and got to see L there! Yay! We actually weren't able to go to our old high school today because she had to stay home with her little brother who was sick. We're going to go on Friday instead :) can't wait. Afterward, we stopped at Church and joined my parents Bible study for a bit as they were having a potluck.

I have a sense of impending doom because illnesses have been going around work and my sister M has a cold. I have been doing soooooo well as far as not getting sick goes so it would REALLY stink to be sick for Christmas. I've been drinking a lot of water (as always) and getting some vitamin C to try and boost my immune system.

I'm going to get to bed early tonight since I have to wake up at 5:30 for work tomorrow morning. Right from my shift, I'm going to visit with my grandma until my mom gets off of work and then we're going to watch E cheer for a basketball game.

6 more days until Christmas!!!

Sunday, December 16, 2012

'Tis the Season

For electrical fires??

I had a pretty hardcore picture to upload of my charred outlet but alas, it did not work. Long story short, my plastic wall outlet went up in flames right before my eyes. It was TERRIFYING! Thank goodness it went out be itself and didn't spread.

In other news...

The house is completely decorated! I am so in the Christmas spirit right now, I don't want the season to end.

I started back at work yesterday and everything went really well. A lot of people remembered me and I didn't expect that at all, I always though that I went unnoticed. I'm working again tomorrow morning and I'm actually looking forward to it. I really do like my job a lot. Not a lot of people can say that!

This week is going to be reaallly busy, here's what is on the agenda:

Monday: Work until 11, Christmas shop with my mom.
Tuesday: Visit high school with L, visit family friends, go to E's band concert.
Wednesday: Christmas shopping all day with my sisters.
Thursday: Work until 11, wrap gifts.
Friday: Clean/prepare for Christmas party all day and party at night.
Saturday: Family party in the evening.
Sunday: Church and last minute preparations!

Wooo I can't wait for all this fun stuff.

Happy Sunday!

Friday, December 14, 2012

In an Instant

I had a completely different post planned for tonight but I can't bring myself to write about something trivial. Obviously, by now everyone is well aware of what went on today. I am so sad. I don't even want to watch the news or go on yahoo because I can't bear to learn any more details about this tragic events.

I don't know why these things happen, I truly don't but God does and I pray that He would give peace and comfort to all who are healing. It's such a hard situation because as a believer, I now that these kids are with the Lord in heaven, but what parent wants to hear that their child is in a better place when they loved them so much here on earth? I don't know how to react to such a heartbreaking situation. I wish these things didn't happen but they do, over and over again. I know that this is a fallen world and the tragedy in CT is just proof of that.

Nothing is guaranteed, every day is precious. Cherish all that you have, embrace each moment. It is so easy to get caught up in petty little things, I am hugely convicted by this.

Job 1:21 is a verse I am holding dear tonight. He gives and takes away and it is all part of His plan. Blessed be His name.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

My 12/12/12

It's no secret that I like numbers. I'm actually one of those weird people who hates math but loves numbers. Exactly one year and one month and one day ago, it was11/11/11, something I was excited about for literally 6 years. This year, 12/12/12 came around and everybody was making a big deal about it being the last repetitive date for 89 years. I guess I was semi looking forward to it but I had also been dreading today because I had to go into work and do some computer stuff and schedule myself. As I was walking through the hallways of the maternity unit (if you're new, I work as a nurses assistant), there was a big group  of nurses and they were all cheering. I was really confused until I heard someone say that they had just delivered a baby at 12:12 on 12/12/12! That's pretty cool.

Anyway, I had to do this awful computer competency testing and I didn't even finish because I was literally about to rip my eye balls out. I have to go back tomorrow. On the bright side, I don't think I'll be overworked during my break, it seemed like my boss is just happy to have me picking up hours, even it's not a lot. My first day back is Saturday morning. I'm slightly nervous, I can't believe that it's been 4 months since I worked at the hospital. This is the last post that I mentioned work in, I actually said that I wouldn't be working during holiday breaks. Ha, things have changed a bit I guess. It's good for me to keep working throughout the year, so that I don't get too out of touch and return in the summer being all confused. I probably won't work during spring break but that's because it's too short really.

Tonight I'm going with my older sister M to babysit my favorite family! Woo! Since I've been at school, M has taken over the steady babysitting job and I have missed it so much. 

Anyway, that was my 12/12/12! Good times on the homefront!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Meanwhile, Back at Home

Yeah, so it's been a whole week since I posted. I think that that is the longest I've gone between posts since June. This past week I finished up at school and returned to the much-loved busy chaos of home. I was happy at college but I am very happy here.

This post is kind of lame and short but I am about to make homemade sauce and meatballs with my mom.

God is good!

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Prayer Request

I have no idea why I didn't think to include this in my worry post yesterday but today is my much anticipated eye appointment. It has been scheduled for over 2 months. Please pray for wisdom for the doctors and that there is nothing seriously wrong with my eye.
I really appreciate it.

Monday, December 3, 2012

The Post in Which I Release My Worries

Currently, I am nervous about a lot of things. Writing about it usually helps so I'm going to take a moment and release some stress:
  1. I'm really nervous about checking of of my residence hall. I don't have any finals during the actual finals week so I'm done on Friday. Only the thing is, they only have sign ups for check outs beginning on the 11th. Of course I was freaking out and thinking I was going to have to hang around here for 4 days after my exams are over. I talked to an RA and he talked to the head of our hall and she said that it was ok to check out early if I get my paperwork early and to take to my RA. So I texted my RA and she said that she would give me the details after her meeting tonight. It seems like it'll all work out and I'll be able to leave on schedule but I'm so worried that it won't. 
  2. My roommate is moving in after I leave for my appointment tomorrow. I have to finish clearing out my room tonight and I'm nervous about the whole thing. To be completely honest I'm a lot more concerned about losing my extra space then I am about actually living with someone. Lame, I know but it's been great having two desks, two beds and room to spread out my stuff. I know this sounds really selfish and in the grand scheme of things it's not a huge deal. I know all this but I guess I'll just miss it. As far as my actual roommate goes, she's really cool and I think we'll be good friends but I'm worried that we'll be on different schedules. I get really annoyed when my sleep is disrupted so I really hope she isn't a later night kind of person. 
  3. I'm really nervous about my exams. My Anatomy Lab exam is tomorrow and I've really put a lot of effort into studying and trying to really hammer the material into my brain. It's going to be hard, I know that much, I just hope I can at least pull of a B. My Anatomy class exam is Friday and I'm worried because it's on a lot of stuff and it's very complicated and in depth. And of course, I am the most nervous about my statistics exam on Friday as well. It's over so much material and I'm afraid of failing it. I don't know how well I'm doing in that class, which makes me extra anxious. My ultimate fear is that I'll fail the class. 
  4. Mine and L's Christmas party is causing me some trouble too. Not even because I'm afraid of hosting but because I realized that it's on the day that the world is supposed to end. I really don't believe that it's true but I guess I just get nervous. Anyway, my parents said that they'll clear out during the party which means they won't be with me if...oh Lord. I have bashed people who believed in this crap about the apocalypse, I don't really honestly believe it but again, I'm an irrational worrier. 
Alright, if you want to count the number of times that the words, nervous, worry and fear appeared in this post feel free. I'm sure it's a pretty high number.


Sunday, December 2, 2012

Come Feel This Magic

Hmmm, what is it with me and writing posts to Taylor Swift songs?? Hey Stephen is just finishing up, one of my faves. I'm watching/listening to part two of Journey to Fearless.

In case you haven't guessed, I made it through last night. Actually, no one ended up sleeping over. That obviously made thing a lot easier for me. Anyway, it was a lot of fun and I'm glad I went.

Let's see...tomorrow is the beginning of my last week of school. Hollah! I'm super excited about this. I just have to studying my rear end off. Fun fun. Also, I'm going home on Tuesday for my much anticipated eye appointment, while I'm away, my new roommate is moving in. I'm both excited and nervous. I really feel like it's going to work out and be fun but of course, I'm slightly nervous.

In other news, for some reason I've become a huge crybaby. I NEVER used to be this way. I'd say that in high school I started to cry more often in books/movies but these days, sheesh! I cry at happy things even, which I have never done before. I really have no idea why I am this way now. It's actually kind of odd. I was just trying to figure it out today but I have no explanation. Weird. I'm not sensitive in the way that my feelings get hurt easily and I don't usually cry when I get hurt. I don't know...and I'm not pregnant. Ha, yeah I just though I should put that out there so no one gets the wrong idea.

Oy, the things I ramble about on a Sunday night

Saturday, December 1, 2012

In My Own Way

Ugh, I have been riddled with fear and worries since I was little. They have stopped me from doing SO many things, honestly I can't even count how many things I missed out on because I had a fears about it.

Tonight the girls in my Bible study are having a sleepover. I am going to go but I am so worried about it. I'm not afraid of sleepovers, like I don't get homesick or whatever, but I have different worries about spending the night somewhere. I am petrified of getting sick over someone else s house. I don't mean catching a cold, I mean like getting the stomach flu or a migraine or waking up dizzy. I'm so nervous about these things. I really want to go though so I'm going to try and not think about it and just pray and give my worries to God.

It's very hard for me though, because for so long I have let my fears control my life. Since I've been here at school it has been a constant battle, this whole journey has been one obstacle after another. It is tiring for me and the other night I broke down and cried. For three months I have been battling my fears, one thing after another has come up. I obsess about things that I am afraid of, first it was my early class and walking there when it's dark, then it was my Bible study and being able to find a ride/waiting outside for my ride, there was also the dance show that I had to go see and walk there at night...and really there have been even more things in between. I wish I was someone who could just do things and not think so hard about them. I wish that I would truly be able to give these fears to God and not worry at all.

I'm not sure how this post is coming across, I hope I don't sound like a nutcase, I'm not. Just a girl who is so tired of living this way.

But I'm going to go to the sleepover, I'm going to enjoy myself, I'm going pray every time I feel worried. I'm going to be alright.

Proverbs 3:5 “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.”