Monday, July 30, 2012

Olympics Part One

Can I just say that I love the Olympics?? Specifically the summer Olympics?? Well I do. I decorated my room with Beijing posters back in 2008 and I plan to make some London one's tomorrow. Girls gymnastics is my favorite to watch. I DVR'd yesterdays qualifying rounds and watched it this morning. What an upset! I've been routing for Gabby Douglas but I also knew that Jordyn Weiber was a favorite for the all around. So I, along with everyone else, was very surprised when she was bumped out of the running by Aly Raisman. It was so sad to watch Jordyn crying but at the same time I was really excited for Aly, no one saw her coming and she totally beat the odds and really got the opportunity of a lifetime.

For the record, I could have been a gymnast. I have the right body type AND I was really flexible and had some raw talent. Unfortunately I had to have back surgery, ah another story for another post. 

Furthermore I will now post a few predictions for the all around competition for Woman's Gymnastics:
Volt: Mckayla Maroney (Gold)
Floor: Aly Raisman (Bronze or Silver)
Beam: None of our team
Bars: Gabby Douglas (Gold or Silver)
Over All: Possibly a Gold or Silver for Douglas

I'm also watching Men's Diving as we speak!
Happy Monday!


Saturday, July 28, 2012


I don't know if anyone remembers this post but the family that I mentioned in it is celebrating their son in heaven's 6 birthday today. You might know them as my "favorite family" and I babysit for them often. The parents are some of the nicest people I know and they are leading their household through God. They are true role models for me and I adore their kids. I can't imagine how hard it must be to celebrate your child's birthday without the child there. I'll be praying for them today and for these next few days that mark the anniversary of their sons life here on earth. I ask that you would do the same.


Friday, July 27, 2012

The Post That Needs to be Written

As much as I would like to avoid the subject, I realize that I can't really do that any longer. I'm going to college in 27 days.

Some parts of me feel as if I'm not nearly ready. I can't stand to be alone when I don't feel well and I still carry around an immense fear of being kidnapped. I can't even imagine what it would be like to deal with the stomach flu or a migraine all by myself. It scares me half to death. Some nights I can't sleep just thinking about how worried I am. I can't take the anxiety that comes with talking about it. I hate the unknown and more importantly, I despise change. Get me in the right mood and I'll sob about getting my hair cut or moving my bedroom. I'm not even that sensitive of a person but change and memories really do it to me. I know so much that I can't stop time but that doesn't make it much easier.

On the other hand, I am excited to be on my own. This past year I have experience what most high school seniors have, the feeling of wanting to break free and be independent. I'm excited about making new friends and starting anew. I've went to the same school my whole life and I've never had an opportunity to have a fresh slate. I'm interested to see what kind of people I'll click with and if I'll find someone as awesome as my two best friends here at home.

What makes it even harder is that I have a really great homelife and an awesome family. There are those kids who hate their parents and can't wait to get away. That is so not me. I love my parents to death and it saddens me that I'm 18 now and technically not under their care anymore. It sounds weird but I miss sitting on my moms lap or having her scratch my back like when I was a little girl. I love her and my dad so much.

So, am I ready? No. Would I ever be completely ready for something so life changing? Maybe not. And I doubt I'm the only one but that doesn't help much. Just because everyone else is freaking out it doesn't make it any easier for me. The bottom line is that I have no idea what to expect so I'm pretty much expecting the worse. My hopes in writing this out is that I will look back on it in a few months and think of how silly I was for being so nervous. That is what usually happens to me, I make a big deal over something that turns out just fine.

But what if it's not fine...

I have been told by quite a few people that the first few weeks of college are extremely tough and lonely. I hope that this blog can keep me company. It helps to type this out, it really does.

BUT most importantly of all is that God will be with me every step of the way. I console myself with this fact every single day. I know I couldn't do it without Him, and all things are possible through Him. He has a plan for me and I can't just sit at home and wait for it to unfold. I have to go out and seize these great opportunities that He has put in front of me. I trust in Him.

When I am afraid, I will trust in you.
Psalm 56:3


Thursday, July 26, 2012

Lazy Summer Day

Today my boss called to say that I didn't have to come into work to day.


Half an hour later one of the other nurse assistants (yep, that's what I am!) called to see if I could come in for her after all.


I said that I had made plans (true) and she said she understood. So I'm left with a nice day to myself. The weather isn't that great but I'll probably go to the mall for a bit and then relax and read a book. Sounds fun right?? 

Anyway, I still haven't found out who my roommate is. That worries me a bit because I'd like to have a little time to get to know her. And by get to know I mean send her a friend request on faceboook ;). I think my mom is going to call the housing department at work just to make sure that I'm on track and I won't end up in a single room with no one but my laptop, Lars, to keep my company. Actually, that doesn't sound all that bad...

On a much, much higher note, the Olympics start tomorrow! I LOVE the Olympics, specifically the gymnastics, swimming, diving and track. I also prefer the summer games to winter, so I am totally into this! I stayed up until 1 in the morning during the last summer Olympics in Beijing to watch girls gymnastics.

Here's to hoping I have the best day off ever!


PS. Did you notice I made labels? It took me forever, but it's totally worth it right?

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

List It

  1. Because my thoughts are so jumbled I'm going to make a list
  2. I got an e-mail saying that my college bill is ready but I can't bring myself to tell my dad, who has been asking about it for weeks, I'll tell him tomorrow. You know, when I'm ready to think about all this stuff. 
  3. I enjoyed my day at the amusement park, especially the part when the I played the age, weight or birthday guessing game and the lady guessed I was 20 pounds heavier than I actually am. 
  4. I may possibly be getting a cold, I HATE colds as you may already have gathered. But the way 'm feeling could also be attributed to the yelling at the loud park yesterday and going to bed with wet hair. 
  5. I'm babysitting for my favorite family ever tonight. 
  6. If July is the "safezone" why don't I feel safe??? 
  7. Dance Moms is on a 2 week hiatus. "Sniffles" 
  8. I'm working Thursday and Friday, 4 hour shifts. No biggie. 
  9. I'm still in a hair cutting dilemma. My good friend just got her hair cut and donated it. I've donated mine 3 times and the last time I really regretted getting it cut so short. But it's such a great cause and I feel sort of obligated. 
  10. Dramamine really came in handy yesterday. I get motion sickness usually but I was able to ride with little to no discomfort! Wooho

Ha, not really.



Sunday, July 22, 2012

Vacation and the Upcoming Week

Well, we rolled in around 9:30 on Friday night. I was super glad to be home, I do NOT like sleeping in any bed other than my own.

I will pretend to ignore the fact that I will soon be sleeping in a different bed in college.

Anyway, we went to Canada. We saw the cities, the falls and some little towns. All in all it was not my type of vacation. I'm more of a resort or beach house type of girl. Being in cities makes me feel stressed out. But I didn't complain, I went along with everything. I was a good sport, pats on the back are deserved.

I did enjoy time with my family, I loved swimming in the hotel pools and I enjoyed shopping around. I wanted to go to a restaurant where I could order ribs (my all time favorite!) the entire time but my dad thought they would be too expensive.

So guess who is getting homemade ribs tonight????


This week is gong to be a busy one! It's back to work tomorrow at 7 and then to a baseball game with my parents and older sister. C is sleeping over because on Tuesday we are going to a big amusement park. Wednesday, I am babysitting for my favorite family EVER! And Thursday and Friday I'm working.


I have so many posts that I want to write. I just need time to write them. I've also felt an enormous urge to start writing a story but I don't have any plot ideas! Dilemmas....

Happy Sunday!

Friday, July 13, 2012

Alright, I'll Say It


This whole week has been VBS from 9-12 (no sleeping in there!) and we have been taking my 3 cousins so afterward we are in charge of watching them for a little while. I also worked every other afternoon for the past 3 weeks. I babysat Monday night, I'm babysitting Friday night. I picked up an 8 hours shift yesterday and didn't get to sleep until midnight. Today I have VBS (last day :() till 12, some nice free time and then babysitting until 9:30 then back up Saturday morning for a 7-11 work shift. I am also madly trying to switch around two of my days so that I can go to a baseball game with my family on one day and babysit on the other (I committed to the day before checking my work schedule...stupid me) AHHHHHHHH typing it out makes me crazy.

But there is hope.

Because Saturday is my last work day before vacation! Yeehaw!

I'm taking a deep breath, putting on my big girl panties and praying for a good attitude for these next 27 hours.


Monday, July 9, 2012

'Lil Post

Ha. Just a little tie-over post because I have nothing to do right now but I'm a little tired. My sister and my VBS group is...lively.

Alright they're monsters.

Last year we had sweet, well behaved children who were good listeners and eager learners. This year? Not so much.  I have to say that having a rowdy group makes VBS a lot less fun. Tomorrow I'm going to try to bond with them, get down on their level so we can be friends and thus they might start listening better. Ah...good plan?

Tonight as I was brushing my teeth I was looking, alright admiring, my long hair. I've been growing it for nearly 2 years. It's the longest it's been since I was 12 or so and I'm loooooooving it. Yes, it's heavy and unruly when it's not straightened but I just love having long hair. My best friend C keeps telling me that if I let it group to my butt (and it's pretty darn close) then it will make me look like a little kid. I sort of know what she's saying but I don't know if I want to cut it again. I've had this hair for so long and for the first time I'm actually attached to it. I used to have no problem cutting my hair but after the big Chop of 2010, I was devastated and vowed to not cut my hair again for a very very long time. Goal achieved. But I still keep telling people who comment on it that I will cut it before I Ago to college, why do I say that when I'm not really planning on it??? I mean I know my hair can't grow forever, I don't want to be that girl. But it does bring me comfort and to be honest, I need that right now. I've resigned to the fact that I'll at least have to trim it before school but I'll probably end up cutting off a good few inches and getting layers and side bangs, we shall see.

On another note I'm happy to report that my family and I are officially going on vacation!! If you knew us you'd know that it is NOT easy for us to plan things, my parents aren't the greatest "planners" and things often get forgotten about or given up on, like last years vacation. But this year it is actually going to happen. The hotels have been booked and we are leaving next week! Yay! I will not disclose where we are going until we get back because I'm paranoid like that.

Anywho....this title is sort of a bigger joke than I originally thought because this post really isn't 'lil. Hmmm, what else to tell??? Well, I have a doctors appointment tomorrow for my self-dubbed "dead toe". It literally looks like it's dying so this podiatrist visit is a wee bit overdo don't you think?

Aaaaaaaaand that's about it! This was definitely all over the place  but that represents my life right now so it works!

Happy Monday!


Saturday, July 7, 2012


For those of you who don't know, VBS stands for Vacation Bible School. Most christian churches hose their own VBS for one week in the summer. The themes are always cute and fun, the past couple years have had an Egyptian theme, an Old Western theme and a Game Show theme. This year is an amusement park theme, which I think is awesome!

Here is a pic of my shirt that I just finished: 

                                                       Iron-ons terrify me, but I managed to NOT mess up

Anyway, VBS is always a great time. This is my second year as a guide and my sister and I are assigned to the 2nd grade group. I know that there are some rowdy 2nd grade boys but we can handle anything! I hope.

So VBS (how many times can I say that in one post??) starts this Monday and goes through Friday. I can't wait to learn all the songs and motions, get to know my group, and win the overall points contest!!

Hurray for VBS! My favorite time of the summer!


Friday, July 6, 2012

Dear Target,

I had a rather traumatic scare yesterday, it involved a Vera Bradley catalog and some scary pictures. Today I was ever so disipointed to walk into your store and see the giant sunglasses, pool float and sand scoop had been replaced by giant pencils. Shame. On. You.

July 6th

July 6th


In the future please wait until AT LEAST the end of July to start with your back-to-school torture. Next time I come to your store for Clearisol and sun block I will be sure to close my eyes when passing these horrid displays.



Thursday, July 5, 2012

Curse You Vera Bradley Catalog!

I was laying on the couch, reading some VBS info and minding my own business, when my sister tosses me the latest Vera Bradley catalog. Guess what is on the cover??? THIS:

                                                                         Oh the horror

Now what is this, you ask? It's a bit more than just a few flaky girls trying to kiss a very loaded down prep school boy. What is it actually then? Look closely at the books, the purses. You'll see that this, my dear reader is an advertisement for SCHOOL SUPPLIES.

July 5th

July 5th

I begin to expect this type of thing toward the end of July but not ever at the very beginning! July is supposed to be the Safe-zone!! This is not safe! Who said it was okay to send these types of mail to unsuspecting girls innocently resting on their couches??

Honestly I don't even want to think about school right now, college is a source of immense stress that will eat me alive if I let it. Sometimes I literally feel as if I'm heading toward me death. I am so scared, of the unknown, of the known...of EVERYTHING.

These types of advertisements send me clear over the edge, my heart begins to race and my head fills with worries. I just want it all to go away. But alas, it will not, it will only get worse. Oh please Lord, give me strength.

And to Vera, I love your items. I have the laptop skin and shoulder bag as well as a pencil case, all thoughtfully designed by you. But please think twice before you give another girl a near-heart attack with your July Back-to-School campaign.


Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Prayer Request

I mentioned a few weeks ago how I read another blog about a little girl named Lucy and her family. Lucy experienced a miraculous recovery a few weeks ago but is very sick again. I ask that you would please pray for Lucy and the Krull family as a whole.

Here is a link to the blog:

Thank you

Monday, July 2, 2012

I Don't Really Have a Title For This


I don't know where to start or how much to tell. I have this immense fear that someone I know will find my blog and discover that I write about them sometimes.

But this should be the place where I am perfectly honest right???

So this is pretty much it: my very close friend almost certainly has an eating disorder. I suspected it a little over a year ago but I'm the sort of person that doesn't always like to confront things that are bothering me. But this is really serious. My friend, who I've known my entire life is not only the most fun person in the whole world, she is also incredibly pretty and totally has NOTHING to be self conscious about. But the facts are all there and I'm basically 100% positive that my original speciousness are correct. This was all confirmed to me today and it was something that I really did not want to believe. Trust me.

So what do I do?? Do I talk to her about it? Do I talk to her mom whom I'm also really close to? Should I write her a note or do it in person? But the real question is if I really have the guts to confront this head on.

But it would so tear me up if I kept it a secret and something bad were to happen.

I really just want this to go away but these types of things don't usually just do that. She needs help right? I'm so conflicted and confused. All I'm going to do for now is pray.

If you're reading this, can you please do the same?