Monday, December 31, 2012

2012: A Year in Review

Dance Moms premiers for season 2. I write my last post for nearly six months! I celebrate my moms birthday and take my very last set of high school exams.

I begin work as an intern at the hospital alongside L and some other high school friends. Valentines day comes and goes, my sister and I make predictions and bet on the Oscars. The Artist wins best picture and I am sorely disappointed. I get really tired of winter...and make my final college choice.

I begin to prepare for my senior project and scramble around for signatures and recommendations. E turns 13 and I buy her 13 presents and take her to see The Hunger Games.

My last full month of high school starts and I am both sad and excited. My doggy turns 4 and I buy her a new collar! I celebrate Easter with my family. I turn 18 and sister and L throw me a surprise birthday dinner at my favorite restaurant!

I have my last day of high school and document it extensively with pictures. I begin my senior project at the elementary school that I used to attend. I receive my cap and gown. I go to weekly meetings back at high school to check in with my adviser/favorite English teacher. I go to prom! Senior project ends and I work on my final presentation that I must present in front of the committee. I go to my senior banquet and literally have the best time of my life.

I graduate and return to blogging! I return to work as a full fledged Nurse Assistant! I write my summer goals. I have the best time at my graduation party!

Vera Bradley scares the heck out of me! I celebrate the fourth of July at the pool with M and go see Brave that night. I work at my churches VBS. I work...a lot. My family and I go on vacation. I go to my favorite amusement park with L and C! I begin to really worry about college. I do my own coverage on the Olympics.

I have a very funny day. I start to give my college worries to God. I get my hair cut...a little bit. I decide to overcome a habit. I read and review The Hunger Games. I attend my cousins wedding. As summer comes to an end I evaluate and revisit my summer goals. I move into my college dorm. I start Jazz class and the saga begins.

I experience my first fire alarm. C turns 17 on the day that our nation remembers September 11th. My eyes start to give me trouble. I spend an agonizing weekend alone. I begin Bible Study on campus. My relationship with God grows.

I go home for the weekend and reunite with L and C. After much thought I decide to change my major. I write and celebrate my 100th blog post! I decorate my room for fall. I anticipate Taylor Swifts new album and buy it right away!! For the first time I write about my back. I ace my anatomy midterm!! To relieve stress, I begin doing art and right before Halloween I decide to eat healthier.  I celebrate my half birthday and enjoy Halloween with my family.

This is the month in which I blog more than every before! I get extremely annoyed with all of the political drama, and decide that I despise politics. On election day M turns 22. I overcome my habit after three months! I make hundreds of flashcards and nearly drown in them. I do week of thanks and go home for a memorable Thanksgiving.

I have my much anticipated eye appointment but don't leave with many answers. I buy my tickets to Taylor Swifts concert!! I go home for break and slack on blogging a bit. The world doesn't end on December 21st. I get sick on Christmas Eve but still manage to have a good holiday.

So that's it! My 2012.
Here's to 2013!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Christmas Recap

Wooo, it's been a week since I posted! Better late than never though, here's my recap:

Christmas Eve I woke up sick...with a cold. I was SO mad I could barely think straight. I had tried everything in my power to avoid getting sick. Oh well. I relaxed around the house until about 1 when we had to start getting ready to go over my aunt and uncles house.

When we arrived, most people were already there because we're always late! My moms side of the family has grown tremendously over the past 5 years so there were a lot of people on the whole. I greeted everyone and ate some appetizers, actually I ate too much because I wasn't even hungry for dinner. After dinner we went to the Christmas Eve service at our church, it's always such a nice time. We lit candles and sang carols. We went back to my aunts house afterward and opened gifts and the adults did their gift exchange. I really wasn't feeling well so I hung out upstairs for awhile.

\When we got home I snuggled on my favorite couch for awhile and then went down to bed. I had no trouble sleeping because I was SO tired and didn't feel well. I woke up feeling slightly worse, as I had expected. I've had enough colds to recognize the pattern. My older sister and I went to my younger sisters room to hang out with her before we went to open presents with my parents downstairs.

Christmas morning was such  nice time, my family has been very blessed this year. I especially loved giving the gifts that I had bought. I like giving much better than receiving. After a few hours some family stopped over but my mom and I couldn't really visit because she still had to finish up her project for the gift exchange at my uncles house that day. On my dads side of the family we make gifts for a gift exchange, everyone is pretty creative so they always come out really cool. My mom was making this awesome mirror and finished it just in time.

When we arrived at my uncles, I greeted my family and chatted for awhile. Then it was time for dinner, my sisters and I ate at the "kids table" with my four other cousins. None of us are really kids but oh well. After dinner my aunt brought over a set of jacks and I played for awhile, I got up to "sevensies" now I want my own set!

The gift exchange was nice, I ended up with just what I wanted, a framed picture that my cousin had taken on her trip to Ireland, it is really breathtaking. After the exchange we opened up these predictions/goals that we had all written the year before. Not many of them had come true, but mine had. It was all about being happy in college and blah blah blah. We wrote new ones and I can't wait until next year to read those, time will fly by just like it always does.

Everyone was really tired so we didn't end up playing a game or singing songs. I went straight to bed when I got home. It was a very nice Christmas but I just wish I hadn't been sick!


Sunday, December 23, 2012

Christmas Stress

I really don't like to use those two words in a sentence together because Christmas should not be causing stress. Alas, it is. Number one, I am fearful of catching the cold that it seems EVERYONE has. Number two, I still have quite a few things errands to run before tomorrow. Number three, I have to make 4 chocolate pies with M tonight. Number four, I'm really tired because I haven't been sleeping well. basically I just want to get all of this resolved so that I can enjoy this awesome holiday. On the bright side, I finished the story that I've been working for months. It's long and I'm really proud of it. I'm giving it to my favorite grandma for Christmas.

Signing off now, the computer is giving me a headache.

Friday, December 21, 2012

Holly Jolly

Wooo! I had such a nice time visiting my old high school today. There has been a lot of renovation since I left so it looked quite different but I still go to see all the familiar faces. As much as I really do like college, I miss high school!

I'm not sure what is on the agenda tonight but I'm guessing that we'll probably watch a Christmas movie or two :). Tomorrow is a busy busy day, M and I are going to finish up some Christmas stuff, visit a bookstore and then go see a movie. Later on, we have a family party to go to. I'm really looking forward to it.

I woke up this morning with a little tickle in my throat, I am praying that it doesn't turn into a cold...oh please!! I'm also nervous about getting the stomach flu (as always) and I've been dealing with  headaches a lot more than usual lately. I just want to be well for Christmas Eve and day!!

Here's a little glimpse of Christmas at my house:

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

A Little Christmas Cheer

Wooo I did almost all my shopping today, I still have a few more things to get done but I feel pretty satisfied. I also did all my wrapping, which took way longer than I expected. I really like to wrap but after a while it gets redundant.

I am definitely aware that I blog less while I'm at home, I think I'm just busier here and I don't have as much time to sit in front of my laptop. Yesterday was super busy, I did some housework with my mom and then spent a ton of time organizing our wrapping paper bin. Then our cousin came over and we hung out for a few hours. THEN I went to E's school event and got to see L there! Yay! We actually weren't able to go to our old high school today because she had to stay home with her little brother who was sick. We're going to go on Friday instead :) can't wait. Afterward, we stopped at Church and joined my parents Bible study for a bit as they were having a potluck.

I have a sense of impending doom because illnesses have been going around work and my sister M has a cold. I have been doing soooooo well as far as not getting sick goes so it would REALLY stink to be sick for Christmas. I've been drinking a lot of water (as always) and getting some vitamin C to try and boost my immune system.

I'm going to get to bed early tonight since I have to wake up at 5:30 for work tomorrow morning. Right from my shift, I'm going to visit with my grandma until my mom gets off of work and then we're going to watch E cheer for a basketball game.

6 more days until Christmas!!!

Sunday, December 16, 2012

'Tis the Season

For electrical fires??

I had a pretty hardcore picture to upload of my charred outlet but alas, it did not work. Long story short, my plastic wall outlet went up in flames right before my eyes. It was TERRIFYING! Thank goodness it went out be itself and didn't spread.

In other news...

The house is completely decorated! I am so in the Christmas spirit right now, I don't want the season to end.

I started back at work yesterday and everything went really well. A lot of people remembered me and I didn't expect that at all, I always though that I went unnoticed. I'm working again tomorrow morning and I'm actually looking forward to it. I really do like my job a lot. Not a lot of people can say that!

This week is going to be reaallly busy, here's what is on the agenda:

Monday: Work until 11, Christmas shop with my mom.
Tuesday: Visit high school with L, visit family friends, go to E's band concert.
Wednesday: Christmas shopping all day with my sisters.
Thursday: Work until 11, wrap gifts.
Friday: Clean/prepare for Christmas party all day and party at night.
Saturday: Family party in the evening.
Sunday: Church and last minute preparations!

Wooo I can't wait for all this fun stuff.

Happy Sunday!

Friday, December 14, 2012

In an Instant

I had a completely different post planned for tonight but I can't bring myself to write about something trivial. Obviously, by now everyone is well aware of what went on today. I am so sad. I don't even want to watch the news or go on yahoo because I can't bear to learn any more details about this tragic events.

I don't know why these things happen, I truly don't but God does and I pray that He would give peace and comfort to all who are healing. It's such a hard situation because as a believer, I now that these kids are with the Lord in heaven, but what parent wants to hear that their child is in a better place when they loved them so much here on earth? I don't know how to react to such a heartbreaking situation. I wish these things didn't happen but they do, over and over again. I know that this is a fallen world and the tragedy in CT is just proof of that.

Nothing is guaranteed, every day is precious. Cherish all that you have, embrace each moment. It is so easy to get caught up in petty little things, I am hugely convicted by this.

Job 1:21 is a verse I am holding dear tonight. He gives and takes away and it is all part of His plan. Blessed be His name.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

My 12/12/12

It's no secret that I like numbers. I'm actually one of those weird people who hates math but loves numbers. Exactly one year and one month and one day ago, it was11/11/11, something I was excited about for literally 6 years. This year, 12/12/12 came around and everybody was making a big deal about it being the last repetitive date for 89 years. I guess I was semi looking forward to it but I had also been dreading today because I had to go into work and do some computer stuff and schedule myself. As I was walking through the hallways of the maternity unit (if you're new, I work as a nurses assistant), there was a big group  of nurses and they were all cheering. I was really confused until I heard someone say that they had just delivered a baby at 12:12 on 12/12/12! That's pretty cool.

Anyway, I had to do this awful computer competency testing and I didn't even finish because I was literally about to rip my eye balls out. I have to go back tomorrow. On the bright side, I don't think I'll be overworked during my break, it seemed like my boss is just happy to have me picking up hours, even it's not a lot. My first day back is Saturday morning. I'm slightly nervous, I can't believe that it's been 4 months since I worked at the hospital. This is the last post that I mentioned work in, I actually said that I wouldn't be working during holiday breaks. Ha, things have changed a bit I guess. It's good for me to keep working throughout the year, so that I don't get too out of touch and return in the summer being all confused. I probably won't work during spring break but that's because it's too short really.

Tonight I'm going with my older sister M to babysit my favorite family! Woo! Since I've been at school, M has taken over the steady babysitting job and I have missed it so much. 

Anyway, that was my 12/12/12! Good times on the homefront!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Meanwhile, Back at Home

Yeah, so it's been a whole week since I posted. I think that that is the longest I've gone between posts since June. This past week I finished up at school and returned to the much-loved busy chaos of home. I was happy at college but I am very happy here.

This post is kind of lame and short but I am about to make homemade sauce and meatballs with my mom.

God is good!

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Prayer Request

I have no idea why I didn't think to include this in my worry post yesterday but today is my much anticipated eye appointment. It has been scheduled for over 2 months. Please pray for wisdom for the doctors and that there is nothing seriously wrong with my eye.
I really appreciate it.

Monday, December 3, 2012

The Post in Which I Release My Worries

Currently, I am nervous about a lot of things. Writing about it usually helps so I'm going to take a moment and release some stress:
  1. I'm really nervous about checking of of my residence hall. I don't have any finals during the actual finals week so I'm done on Friday. Only the thing is, they only have sign ups for check outs beginning on the 11th. Of course I was freaking out and thinking I was going to have to hang around here for 4 days after my exams are over. I talked to an RA and he talked to the head of our hall and she said that it was ok to check out early if I get my paperwork early and to take to my RA. So I texted my RA and she said that she would give me the details after her meeting tonight. It seems like it'll all work out and I'll be able to leave on schedule but I'm so worried that it won't. 
  2. My roommate is moving in after I leave for my appointment tomorrow. I have to finish clearing out my room tonight and I'm nervous about the whole thing. To be completely honest I'm a lot more concerned about losing my extra space then I am about actually living with someone. Lame, I know but it's been great having two desks, two beds and room to spread out my stuff. I know this sounds really selfish and in the grand scheme of things it's not a huge deal. I know all this but I guess I'll just miss it. As far as my actual roommate goes, she's really cool and I think we'll be good friends but I'm worried that we'll be on different schedules. I get really annoyed when my sleep is disrupted so I really hope she isn't a later night kind of person. 
  3. I'm really nervous about my exams. My Anatomy Lab exam is tomorrow and I've really put a lot of effort into studying and trying to really hammer the material into my brain. It's going to be hard, I know that much, I just hope I can at least pull of a B. My Anatomy class exam is Friday and I'm worried because it's on a lot of stuff and it's very complicated and in depth. And of course, I am the most nervous about my statistics exam on Friday as well. It's over so much material and I'm afraid of failing it. I don't know how well I'm doing in that class, which makes me extra anxious. My ultimate fear is that I'll fail the class. 
  4. Mine and L's Christmas party is causing me some trouble too. Not even because I'm afraid of hosting but because I realized that it's on the day that the world is supposed to end. I really don't believe that it's true but I guess I just get nervous. Anyway, my parents said that they'll clear out during the party which means they won't be with me if...oh Lord. I have bashed people who believed in this crap about the apocalypse, I don't really honestly believe it but again, I'm an irrational worrier. 
Alright, if you want to count the number of times that the words, nervous, worry and fear appeared in this post feel free. I'm sure it's a pretty high number.


Sunday, December 2, 2012

Come Feel This Magic

Hmmm, what is it with me and writing posts to Taylor Swift songs?? Hey Stephen is just finishing up, one of my faves. I'm watching/listening to part two of Journey to Fearless.

In case you haven't guessed, I made it through last night. Actually, no one ended up sleeping over. That obviously made thing a lot easier for me. Anyway, it was a lot of fun and I'm glad I went.

Let's see...tomorrow is the beginning of my last week of school. Hollah! I'm super excited about this. I just have to studying my rear end off. Fun fun. Also, I'm going home on Tuesday for my much anticipated eye appointment, while I'm away, my new roommate is moving in. I'm both excited and nervous. I really feel like it's going to work out and be fun but of course, I'm slightly nervous.

In other news, for some reason I've become a huge crybaby. I NEVER used to be this way. I'd say that in high school I started to cry more often in books/movies but these days, sheesh! I cry at happy things even, which I have never done before. I really have no idea why I am this way now. It's actually kind of odd. I was just trying to figure it out today but I have no explanation. Weird. I'm not sensitive in the way that my feelings get hurt easily and I don't usually cry when I get hurt. I don't know...and I'm not pregnant. Ha, yeah I just though I should put that out there so no one gets the wrong idea.

Oy, the things I ramble about on a Sunday night

Saturday, December 1, 2012

In My Own Way

Ugh, I have been riddled with fear and worries since I was little. They have stopped me from doing SO many things, honestly I can't even count how many things I missed out on because I had a fears about it.

Tonight the girls in my Bible study are having a sleepover. I am going to go but I am so worried about it. I'm not afraid of sleepovers, like I don't get homesick or whatever, but I have different worries about spending the night somewhere. I am petrified of getting sick over someone else s house. I don't mean catching a cold, I mean like getting the stomach flu or a migraine or waking up dizzy. I'm so nervous about these things. I really want to go though so I'm going to try and not think about it and just pray and give my worries to God.

It's very hard for me though, because for so long I have let my fears control my life. Since I've been here at school it has been a constant battle, this whole journey has been one obstacle after another. It is tiring for me and the other night I broke down and cried. For three months I have been battling my fears, one thing after another has come up. I obsess about things that I am afraid of, first it was my early class and walking there when it's dark, then it was my Bible study and being able to find a ride/waiting outside for my ride, there was also the dance show that I had to go see and walk there at night...and really there have been even more things in between. I wish I was someone who could just do things and not think so hard about them. I wish that I would truly be able to give these fears to God and not worry at all.

I'm not sure how this post is coming across, I hope I don't sound like a nutcase, I'm not. Just a girl who is so tired of living this way.

But I'm going to go to the sleepover, I'm going to enjoy myself, I'm going pray every time I feel worried. I'm going to be alright.

Proverbs 3:5 “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.”

Friday, November 30, 2012

Blink! It's About to be December!

That was truly how November was for me. Possibly the fastest month I have experienced. It's truly amazing to how fast months seem to go, and weeks are even quicker. Crazy.

Onward! Let's review November...


Celebrated the end of election season...

...and my sisters birthday

Overcame a trial

Cheered C on in her play

Learned our dance in Jazz

Got bangs

Decided to move in with a girl on my floor

Began to feel more comfortable in my small group Bible study

Did my Week of Thankfulness

Made four pies with M

Celebrated Thanksgiving

Went Black Friday shopping

Began Christmas decorating and preparations

Started to feel insanely tired of this whole, "School Thing"

Blogged more than ever before! 

Sheesh, a lot happened and I don't even think I realized it. I'd say it was a good month overall. So, her's to December, may the Christmas season bring joy and blessings! I'm excited!


Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Finish Strong

I don't really feel like blogging right now. Alas, here I am.

Lately I've been feeling ready for this semester to be OVER. I got a little taste of relaxation over Thanksgiving break and I want it back! The good news: I will officially be done at the end of next week! Woohoo! How awesome is that? I will have over a month off. College life is good.

The bad news: I really don't feel like doing much of anything between now and Friday December 7th. More bad news: I have to do a lot of things before Friday December 7th because I have 3 exams that week. Yeah...I don't feel like studying and working my butt off again but I must! I want to finish strong soooo badly and that can't happen without some hard work. I'm just going to try and push myself these next 8 days. I'm not going to like it and it won't be fun, but it will be so worth it when I do well on my finals.

Hard work, perseverance, prayer and dedication is all I need!


Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Wait, Someone Got Hurt and it Wasn't Me??

I know that I've deprived this blog from my Jazz Class Saga, I am here to tell you that no news is good news. I've been coating alone, trying to learn the dance without fan kicking anyone and practicing my turn whenever possible.

Today however, there was a bit of an upset in Studio E. As we were rolling back to do our rolls, TallGirl's shoulder popped out of her socked. Loudly. One minute I was doing shen-ay turns (phonetically spelled) and the next I realize that everyone has stopped. What's going on???? I finally noticed TallGirl in the corner, crying in pain. The teacher was crouched next to her, holding her arm up. We all just stood there for a bit until she sent Highschoollookalike to get one of the medical people. Then we stood around and watched TallGirl some more, I tried to sit but no one followed so i got up again.

After a lot of staring, the medical ladies rushed in and assessed the situation. Yes, the shoulder was indeed popped out and her arm was beginning to go numb. Not good. They spent a long time putting a sling on her so that she could be transported to the hospital. She cried out in pain a few time which was both sad and awkward at the same time. One lady had to leave the room because all the pain was making her nauseous. Really?

The teacher made us leave the room while they took her on a stretcher but we didn't get out soon enough! Poor dislocated TallGirl cried out in pain just as I walked over the threshold of the door.

The show went on though, we continued in another studio. Word went around that TallGirl was gone and we could return to Studio E. When I saw the empty mats where TG keeps her stuff I felt a pang of sadness.

I hope she'll be alright by Thursday...


Monday, November 26, 2012

Thanksgiving Break 2012

Here are my top 5 moments from my break:
  1. Thanksgiving! That's pretty much a given, but still I had a great Thanksgiving this year. Truly, it was awesome. My dads entire side of the family was there, including my cousin home from college (like me!) and my other cousin who just recently moved back here. My sister and I made four pies! It was a long saga and they weren't perfect but I'd say we did pretty darn good. All of the other food was delicious and I helped clean up this year and got to hang out with my mom and aunts while we did the dishes. After dinner we played some games and hung out. So much fun. The only thing missing was my dad who had to work :(
  2. On the way home from my uncles house, my mom allowed me to turn up the T-Swift and pop out of the sun roof. I loooooove doing this and haven't done it since summer when L and I did it. 
  3. Hanging out with L on Saturday! I missed that girl so much and it was great to catch up with her. We're planning a holiday party for our high school friends in December. We're going to host it together which is good because I have a fear of hosting parties alone. I'm excited about it, but of course, nervous too. 
  4. Black Friday shopping with M and E! Doorbusting at 6 am, sleepwalking through the mall...good times. 
  5. Going to see Silver Linings Playbook with M. She has been excited about this movie for months and I didn't really know exactly what it was about so I wasn't crazy looking forward to it but WOW, it was an awesome movie. I totally recommend it. I'm sure it'll score some Oscar noms too. 
  6. Going out to eat with my family. Quality time. Love those 4 people so much.
Yep that was six, oh well. Better to have too many good moments than too few.



My mom drove me back this morning. She just left my dorm about 5 minutes ago. We had a really nice ride together. I miss her and could probably cry if I wanted to. Boy Meets World is on my TV so that makes me a little less sad.

Depending on when my Anatomy and Physiology lab final is, and I'll find out tomorrow, I may be going home for Christmas break as early as the 7th! Otherwise I will be home on the 11th which isn't too bad either :). My new roommate is moving in sometimes next week. I am excited about it but I will miss having my own room. Now I'm getting sad about that! I just want everything to work out.

I'm going to start decorating my room for Christmas today! I'm really excited for that. I brought some paper for a new red and green chain, some foam to make a big cut out tree and Santa hats and bows. Fun fun fun.

I have this statistics homework that I really don't want to do but I have to do it right now...

Signing off. I'll be posting again later to talk about my break.
Happy Monday!


Saturday, November 24, 2012


I'm laying on my favorite couch in my house. It's dark and peaceful and I can hear my sister upstairs talking to my parents. Thankful.

I'm warm underneath one of my many blankets, I'm using one of our big red pillows. My pajamas are cozy. Thankful.

We got to go out oat at one of our favorite places tonight. I've been going there since I was very small and the food was delicious. My stomach is nice and full. Thankful.

Tomorrow I will get to go to church and worship and learn more about God. I will do this alongside my family and friends. Thankful.

I am loved, provided for and watched over. Thankful.

For all of it.


Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Week of Thankfulness-Day SIx

At risk of sounding a bit shallow I'm just going to go right out and say it,
I'm thankful for technology!

The internet is awesome as far as I'm concerned, I can do all my research for papers online. I get to BLOG online, which I love. It's an easy way to stay connected with people and stay up to date with school work. Microsoft word is my playground and I am currently working on a story that is (gasp) about 30 pages long! Another great thing about the internet? Netflix, another one of my faves. Ahhhh I could write about the wonders of my laptop, Lars for hours. Maybe I should have made this whole post about him.

Let's move on to music devices, although I'm not a huge fan of my ipad, Iris, I love that I can easily download and listen to music all from the same player. Oh and I watch Netflix on my ipad a lot so obviously that's a perk.

And now we have TV. I really love TV, I'm not ashamed. For years I have been able to wind down from school or work by just laying on the couch and watching my shows. I even like to channel surf, I get joy from searching the guide and recording things. I'm weird like that. Movies too, I adore movies. In the theater, on my laptop, TV movies. All of it.

Now, to move toward more meaningful technology. I'm very thankful for all of the medical advances that are continually being made. Without technology I wouldn't have contacts and would be legally blind! Without technology I may have had to have spent a month in a body cast after my spinal fusion surgery. Going back even further, before the surgery even came about, I would have died from scoliosis eventually because my spine was twisting into my lungs. That's a really scary thought.

Technology is making so many great strides, I really hope that in my lifetime cancer will be cured. How awesome would that be???


Monday, November 19, 2012

Week of Thankfulness-Day Five

I am thankful for my friends.

Since I have written quite a bit about my older sister/best friend M in the past few weeks, I'm going to focus on my other two best friends.

C...I love her so much. She has literally been there for me every step of the way for the past 7 years. Even though she doesn't live that close and we go to different schools, we have and will remain close no matter what. When I'm with her, I don't have to worry about how I come off. I can be crazy, I can be myself and we have the best time together. When we were younger we were so imaginative, we created a whole  new land in my uncles backyard, we wrote stories together, we made up fake celebrities and wrote interview out. Every time we had sleepovers we would make an elaborate breakfast in the morning and set the table just so. These days we could spend hours just talking, laughing and have those deep conversations that you can't have with just anyone. I don't know what I would do without her. She is my constant. I imagine in the next 10 years we will attend each other college graduations, be in each others weddings, watch as we start families and careers...I can't wait to do all of that together.

L, AKA Lilly, this girl got me through high school. We were notorious together. I can promise you that I spent more time laughing with her than I did complaining about homework or studying. She is the most fun person I know. She's hilariously candid, crazy impulsive, super kind and so very real. I wish we had gone to the same colleges but it was not to be. I miss her every day, I know that this would be so much fun with her by my side. She is taking her campus by storm, I just know it. The best thing about L is that she is a great listener. I would always tell her my problems and she didn't rush to talk or interrupt. She really thought out her advice. She has calmed me down from so many stressful moments during senior year. With her, everything turned out alright. She compliments me so well and I love her for it. AND I get to see her this weekend! Hollah!


Sunday, November 18, 2012

Week of Thankfulness-Day Four

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I am thankful for my family. I don't really want to group everyone together in this post so I'm going to get a little more specific:

My aunt and uncles are just awesome, I love family gatherings when we get to see each other. My parents are each a part of fairly large families so I do have a lot of them! My favorite aunt and uncle are practically like my second parents, I grew up with them living down the street and they are a huge source of encouragement. Overall, my favorite thing about uncles and aunts is that they are always willing to do something fun with me, play a game or watch a movie.

My cousins...I really don't know who I would be without the 4 girl cousins on my dads side. We are all so close in age and have truly grown up together. We've fought, laughed, cried and shared some of the coming of age experiences that shape who you are as a person. My 3 boy cousins were my best friends growing up, we grew apart over the years but are still friendly. They're coming with us to the beach house this summer so I'm hoping we'll reconnect. As far as younger cousins go, I have three little girl cousins who I adore. They are so funny and look up to me. Cousins are built in best friends!

My grandparents, I have a lot of grandparents! Some of them are step-grandparents but there really is no difference since I have always grown up with them. My favorite grandma means so much to me, she is one of those people who I has always understood me and who I totally connect with. She is the person that I get my zest for writing from and I have always shared a new story with her. My grandpas house is a source of so much nostalgia, it holds memories of countless Christmas Eve gatherings, Easter brunches, Memorial Day picnics and birthday parties. There is ALWAYS food at my grandpa's house, even if we're just stopping over on a Sunday, my grandma K will whip out cheese and crackers, chocolates, sausage, veggies and dip, name it! My final grandma, is hilarious and fun. We really don't have too much in common but she is always a good person to talk with or shop with. I love my grandparents so much.

My sisters! Ahhh, it was the best of times, it was the worst of times....I guess that sums it up! No, but seriously I love my sisters with all my heart. My older sister, M and I are seriously BFF's and always have been. We could talk and laugh for hours and have so many inside jokes. I fight with her sometimes but it doesn't last long. M is a great spiritual role model and the best friend I could ask for. E...oh E, she is my little sister, 5 years my junior. I love her but she is challenging. She can be so much fun and so full of happiness and energy. Or she can be a self entitled rain cloud. Bottom line, I don't know what I would do without her and I know she'll mature eventually. I really love growing up with two sisters, I even love being the middle child. I feel like I get the best of both worlds.

Finally, and I saved the best for last, my parents. God gave me the best of the best. I know I'm probably about to speak in cliches but I don't care, it's all true. My parents are always there for me, they raised me with integrity, they love each other, they love the Lord, they love my sisters and I. I don't know what more a child could ask for. They are the reason I am where I am today, they always encouraged me to do my best but NEVER put too much pressure on me. They work hard for their family and rarely complain. I will never stop thanking God for my parents.

A final shout out to my dog my adorable little snuffles, scruffles, snuggles, struggles, scrubbles, bubble, ruffy, baby-girl, pup-pup, nuffy.  And guinea pig Baileyboy-I love them too!


Week of Thankfulness-Day Three

I am thankful for my church. Last night my family and I went to an event at our church and I felt so much love in the room. Being surrounded by people who care about me AND the Lord.

Can I just say that I LOVE my church? It has definitely been majorly missed since I've gone away to school. I love the music, the pastors, the messages and the people. I have met so many awesome people through my church.

My mom first brought my older sister M and I 11 years ago (actually, the anniversary just passed). I began attending Sunday School in the 1st and 2nd grade classroom. My dad started coming with us about a year later. I didn't love it at first, but once I started to understand what it was all about, I really began to look forward to Sundays and I still do!

My church family has been such a blessing in my life, this is how I met my favorite family and how I have been encouraged by so many people. I have been a part of 5 Bible studies to date and plan on joining another one this summer.

Of course, I can't talk about my church without mentioning how great the messages are every week. We are totally Bible driven and we focus on all sides of God, not just the fluffy and feel good stuff.

To conclude (I feel like I'm writing an essay), I am so thankful for my church and thankful that my mom decided to start going to church at all. Because of her choice we have all been saved and can now look forward to an eternal life with Jesus in Heaven!


Friday, November 16, 2012

Week of Thankfulness-Day Two

 If you're new and haven't read the other parts to this series, click here and scroll down.

Today I am thankful for God's timing. Last night we had a floor meeting with our RA to discuss procedures before we go on Thanksgiving and Christmas break. We talked about a lot of things, including the fact that anyone who doesn't have a roommate could possibly have one when we get back in January. Yikes. Apparently you can keep your single room if you pay a large sum of money to "buy out" the other half. I started brainstorming, would my parents pay that all themselves? Would I have to go into my savings to pay half or more?

I was getting all worried until I ran into my "neighbor" who s!aid that her roommate was moving out after this semester and she doesn't want to get a random roommate either. So, she asked if we could move in together. I've always thought this girl was really nice and friendly and I started thinking that this was a good idea. She checked out my room and I looked in hers and we talked for awhile. We actually have a lot in common and I really think this could work out. I tried not to unleash all of my quirks on, I really hope I didn't scare her off! I'm really not a weird person, I promise.

Pretty much, I obviously like living by myself but there is no way that myself or my parents will want to pay so much to keep a single room. Therefore, if it comes down to the choice of a random roommate or my nice neighbor, I will absolutely choose her! I really am praying that this works out. I know I'll have to be really flexible and easygoing if I live with someone. I'm sure it will be a challenge at times but it will be good for me. Plus, I'll hopefully become good friends with her. I really want that.

God totally worked that all out for me last night! He turned my worry into excitement! I am so thankful for that.


Thursday, November 15, 2012

Week of Thankfulness-Day One

So, for the week leading up to Thanksgiving I want to take each day and focus on one thing that I am thankful for. Obviously I am thankful for more than 7 things but I'm only going to focus on the big stuff. They do NOT go in order of importance though. Day One is just as significant to me as Day Seven will be.


I am thankful for my health. Honestly, this has been something that I have thought about a lot lately. Sure, I've had my share of medical issues, but I am overall a very healthy girl. As I follow the stories of people who have not been blessed with such health, I come to appreciate this even more. I don't know how God chooses who will get a serious illness or injury and someday I may be chosen. Who knows? what I do know is that right now I am very thankful that I can get up in the morning, walk around, eat normally, learn easily enough. It is all so amazing that our bodies work so intricately to keep running smoothly.

Now, to talk about more minor health stuff, this has also been an area of huge milestone. I don't think I've ever gone this long without catching a cold! Honestly, I was going on a once-monthly record last year and it was awful. I HATE colds, they totally bring me down. How awesome is it that I haven't gotten one in this whole time at college? I kind of feel like I'm due for one soon but I'll keep praying otherwise.

Finally, I know that I mentioned awhile back that I was having some eye concerns. I go to the doctor on December 4th to try and figure it all out. It most likely isn't serious but it could be and that, of course, is a source of great anxiety and stress. I am giving those worries to God and thanking Him for the healthy body He has given me!


For Sentiment Sake

I was looking through some old posts and I found this post that I wrote exactly a year ago today. I can't believe how fast time goes.

So here are some 2012 "Midnovember Musings"...

Christmas decor is coming fast! As soon as Target took down the Halloween stuff, the Christmas stuff came. My sister and I were shopping for Operation Christmas Child last weekend and we walked through the holiday section. I got super excited to see all the wrapping paper, lights and stockings. Target also had one of those CD testing things set up where you press the Christmas CD on the screen and it plays you a little preview. Of course I want to get Taylor Swifts Christmas CD this year, I wanted it last year but it never came to be.

In other news, I'm about to head off to Jazz class and learn the rest of my dance. Fun stuff! We also have to learn some combinations across the floor which are giving me a little trouble. Alas, I just need practice. It also doesn't help that I'm partnered up with the most enthused girl in the class, this chick has groove!

That's all for now, but guess what?? I have a little something planned for this week, I'm excited to publish the first part tonight!


Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Play It Again...

I'm writing this post to Taylor Swifts "Our Song". I'm actually watching "Journey to Fearless" on Netflix but I have a habit of just listening to whatever I have on and surfing the web at the same time. I signed up for pre-sale tickets for the RED tour and I am BEYOND excited. Embarrassingly enough this will be my first real concert! I meant to go to Speak Now but my sister ruined it for me, long story.

Anywho, I've been smelling garlic everywhere today. In the elevator, on my hands and oddly enough, on the grapes I was eating. Ew I threw them away. Food here has been getting steadily worse, I can't seem to eat healthy even when I am trying. Nothing here is natural or fresh. I really hope that I don't have a heart attack from all of this processed junk.

In other news, I got some real bangs!! Yes, I know that I had side bangs as of August but they grew out really fast and I started to get annoyed with them so on Monday I tried to trim them up. I didn't do a terrible job but they just didn't look quite right. So I called up a friend who knows how to cut hair and she came over and made them real straight across hard core bangs. I feel funky and I love it. They are itchy though but I'm sure I'll get used to it.

And what else...I'm getting excited for Thanksgiving! My dad's whole side of the family is coming and we're all pretty close. I just love this time of the year.

Oh yeah, fire alarm went off this morning at one am. I jumped out of my six foot bed and somehow landed on my feet? Seriously, it was like I floated down there, I think Jazz class is improving my motor skills because it was honestly ninja-like. After we all got back into our beds the alarm went off again, boo. I finally got back to sleep an hour later. Turns out some guys burned their popcorn. Lame.

Happy Thursday peeps!


Monday, November 12, 2012

Cursed Fruit Chips

I ate some fruit chips today with my lunch and now I feel like I'm about to lose it. My lunch, I mean, lose my lunch.

Silly me for buying the seemingly innocent peach flavored all natural apple chips. Silly me. Yuck, I can't think about them.

I feel like by typing this out I somehow am warding off any vomit. Hopefully that is true.

In other news...

...there is no other news. Sorry folks, right now I am going to wrap myself in a blanket and watch Netfflix and hopefully not throw up.


Friday, November 9, 2012

Friday Thoughts

In list form!

  1. I'm going home right after Stats class, my friend K's dad is driving us both. I kinda wish that one of my parents could have came and got me. I like riding with them as opposed to someone else's dad, oh well. I should be glad that I have a ride home at all. 
  2. I'm going to give M her birthday present from me tonight! I'm so excited, my mom and I both pitched in for it and we ordered it last month. It's a Sawyer figurine from her FAVORITE shoe Lost. I know she's going to looooovvveee it. 
  3. Tonight is C's play, I can't wait to see her in it. She's a great actress and performer. I'm going to get her flowers. 
  4. After today there is only one full week left of school, then two days before Thanksgiving break. That's only 7 more days of school until the little break. 
  5. Wow, there is currently a Christmas themed commercial on my TV.  I'd like to be annoyed about the early advertising but I just love the season so much!
  6. I have an Anatomy and Physiology test today. I'm not sure that I studied enough, I hope it works out. 
  7. We started learning our final dance in Jazz yesterday. It's really fast but it's fun and high energy. It's to this song and I'm totally loving it. 
  8. I have to leave for my Stats lab (not class) very shortly and I'm not really looking forward to it. 
  9. I began Desperate Housewives Season Three yesterday. I'm not sure  how long it's been since I started. I thought that I'd be done with the 5th season by Christmas, but I feel like it will be before that. 
  10. I'm going to start working on my red and green paper Christmas chain soon. Exciting stuff. 

Thursday, November 8, 2012

I Miss High School

There, I said it. And I'm not ashamed.

Don't take this post to mean that I am miserable here at college and long for my glory days. That's honestly not the case. I really do like it here, I just miss some things.

I had the BEST junior and senior year of high school, I was in an awesome post-secondary medical program and I made so many friends through it. we became like a family. That's when I met one of my best friends, I'll call her Lilly, Seriously, me and Lilly made the best memories together for our last two years of high school. We were a notorious best friend due and we were always making people laugh. Lilly is the reason that high school was so much fun, I don't think there is any person that I laughed with more than with her. She is so hilarious and fun. I wish we could have went to the same college but she was going into pharmacy and I was going into nursing and it just wouldn't have worked out. If she was here...I would be having a GREAT time instead of just a good time. Oh well. And my other friends, I miss them so much. The feeling of being surrounded by people you really loved and cared about was so comforting.

I used to hate school, really hate it. For a good five or six years. Junior year totally changed that and I began to enjoy it, to enjoy learning and being around my friends. I liked going to school, a lot. Sure, it stunk to have to wake up early and homework wasn't exactly fun but I knew that it was worth it and I didn't mind those things. I experienced the biggest turnaround, I went from a girl who spewed "I hate school" and "Why can't I just be home-schooled, why do I have to go??" to someone who said things like "I like school" and "I don't want to stay home" even when I didn't feel well. If I were to go back in time and ask my twelve year old self if I ever thought that I would like school, I surely would would have laughed and said no way.

What else do I miss about high school you ask??? The teachers! I had so many great teachers through my five years at high school (no I didn't get held back, my high school used to include 8th grade as well) especially my English teacher senior year. She was so awesome and I really miss her, we were friends! Even though he was a bit rough around the edges, I miss math teacher, we really did end up being friends just like I said in that post last year. I can't believe its been a year since I wrote some of those posts.

Finally, I just miss the high school building. It was SO familiar and comfortable to me. I easily knew where everything was and friendly faces were everywhere. I miss the calm feeling of walking through the halls during class to go to the bathroom or drop off a note, everything was vacant and quiet and I used to love reflecting on things in those halls. And the classrooms, my medical classroom where I spent the most time. It felt like home. 

I sometimes wonder if I'll ever have that kind of experience here. I hope I do, I hope I find some way to make a nice group of really good friends. I hope that the campus will feel like home. I hope that some teachers will impact my life.

Even if those things never quite come to be, one thing is still constant and I hope it always will be. I like school and I like learning. All thanks to my high school.


Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Overcoming the Habit

I wrote this post way back in August right before going to college. My word counting had gotten worse than ever and I was determined to stop. It took a little while but I have been counting free for over a month! I honestly think that this is a habit that develops from stress and at that point in my life, I was very stressed!

Thankful that God gave me the strength to stop and that I am able to overcome the urge.


Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Happy Birthday M!

Today is my sister M's 22nd birthday! It's hard to be annoyed about politics when I can celebrate the birth of my best friend. M and I have been close from the start. My entire childhood contains numerous memories of the two of us playing Barbies in the basement or riding our bikes around the block. M and I would play little games all the time where she was the mom and I was her daughter (or son sometimes :), we were each others playmates and over the years our bond has only deepened. I don't know what I would do without her. She is my role model, my confident and best friend for life.

So, this post is for M and her impressive 22 years. I wish her many more good ones and am thanking God for blessing me with the most amazing older sister I could ask for.


Monday, November 5, 2012

On Politics

I'll tell you how I feel about politics right off.

I despise them.

I feel that our political system is so flawed. The bashing, the immature and catty name calling...the fact that no one can agree on anything and thus nothing can get done. I can't stand how the party system is so divided. I wish that people could just be genuine and try to get along. I wish there was a candidate that I believed in, but there really isn't. I honestly don't feel comfortable with voting for either.

I will be SO happy when this election is over, I am so sick of the ads, phone calls, commercials....blah. You know what bugs me the most? How ridiculous people are about politics, it makes people mean, immature and extremely judgmental.

I'm done writing about it now. I don't want to get too angry.
(The end.)


Thursday, November 1, 2012

The Land of Flashcards and Pumpkins

Let's review October shall we?


Decorated my room for fall

Made hundreds of flashcard for Anatomy and Physiology

Got an A on my midterm!

Celebrated my 100th blog post!

Changed my major

Spent some time with my two best friends

Excelled in leaping in Jazz Class (hollah!)

Finished season one of Desperate Housewives

Enjoyed a very low-key Halloween

Alright, I guess it wasn't too uneventful!
Here's to November! May I be extra thankful this month and I pray that it's a great 30 days!


Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Happy Halloween!

Welcome and happy Halloween!! I'm not one of those die hard Halloween fans, but I do think it's a fun holiday and creates many memories. Yesterday I looked back at my past costumes and today I'm going to talk about how I celebrate/have celebrated.

The usual Halloween routine for my family is to invite my moms side of the family over and have a little party and trick or treat. There are 6 cousins under 11 on that side so there are plenty of people going out to get candy! I haven't trick or treated in two years, I think I'm officially done but I do walk with my cousins so it's still fun.

In the past we have really made some cool costumes, one year I was a stop light and my dad made the costume for me out of a cardboard box and some colored plastic wrap. My sister was the statue of liberty and we made that whole costume as well. We don't really do the "scary" part of Halloween.

If we didn't have family coming over every year I would most definitely help out at the fair they have at my Church, I have been wanting to volunteer for years but I don't want to miss out on visiting with my relatives. This year has been a bit unpredictable because hurricane Sandy has literally rescheduled our Halloween to Friday. I was planning on coming home tomorrow night and then going back Thursday morning before my 11 o'clock class. BUT, since trick or treating has been moved I don't have to go back in the middle of the week I can come home Friday. It's a lot easier this way so I'm pleased, but not happy that the reason it got moved is because of an awful storm.

Here is a the pumpkin I carved, it's so super blurry but it's the best I got on my phone:

Happy Halloween! 

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Ghosts of Halloween Past

I'll write a real Halloween post tomorrow but for fun today I wanted to go back and remember what I dressed up as for each year of my life

6 Months: Lamb
1 Year: Devil
2 Years: Daisy
3 Years: Ballerina
4 Years: Tinkerbell
5 Years: Charmelion (the pokemon)
6 Years: Butterfly
7 Years: Medieval Princess
8 Years: Hillbilly Cowgirl (hilarious and homemade)
9 Years: Stop Light (also homemade by my dad!)
10 Years: British Royal Guard (homemade and very real looking)
11 Years: Mexican Clown (thrown together and accidentally terrifying)
12 Years: Geisha
13 Years: Black Cat (LAME)
14 Years: Headless/Pumpkin Head
15 Years: Not sure what to call it but M and I coordinated and had masks/capes/spray painted outfits, very cool.
16 Years: Repeat of the year before, costume was just too awesome.
17 Years: Cheetah
18 Years: To be decided, nothing extravagant since I'm not actually going to be trick or treating.

So there you have it!
Which sounds the coolest to you??


Monday, October 29, 2012

Weekend FUN

I am literally forcing myself to write this. What I really want to be doing is laying on my leisure bed with my new Vera Bradley fuzzy blanket. Alas, I also want to document some memories.

Friday afternoon my mom and sister M came and picked me up a little after five. I was so happy to see them! As soon as we got home we had to get ready to leave for our high school's football game because my younger sister E was going to be joining the high school band for a special Halloween-Marching-Band EXTRAVAGANZA YO! Furthermore, I must inform you that I reallllllly dislike football games, especially high school football. I hate to say it but the bands just sound like noise, especially our band. They play the same songs EVERY year. I'm just an innocent bystander and even I notice how tired "Thriller" is beginning to sound, and I love me some Michael Jackson too.

BUT, I really wanted to be with my family so I put on my college sweatshirt like the very cool and grown up girl that I am. It was cold, rainy and miserable and our rear ends got wet on the seats. We did make some memories though and it was fun to see E playing on the field like she will be next year.

After we got home I put on my cozy pajamas and joined my mom and sisters in her room and we all talked together. When my mom fell asleep (because that just always seems to happen), M and I went to our rooms and chatted for awhile. I slept so darn well in my bed. My bed here at school is not uncomfortable, it just doesn't compare to the wonders of my bed at home. I picked out that mattress when I was literally four years old and I've had it ever since. Perfection. I did have an odd dream about having surgery to get tubes in my ears, but overall, the night was a  success.

Saturday I slept in for a little while and then I emerged just in time to bid my parents farewell as they headed off to a conference at our Church. M and I had a fun day ahead of shopping and eating (the best things in life). We headed to the mall around 11 and from there we went to eat, after that we drove to another plaza and got ice cream and went to the bookstore. M picked out a new book for me and I think it actually might be pretty good. I'm a pretty picky reader and it's hard for me to just grab a book off the shelf but I stepped out of my comfort zone so hopefully it will be worth it.

We got home and soon my parents did too. Surprise, surprise E was at the mall (same mall that I had just been to) with a friend and needed to be picked up. So I joined my mom and we went and got her. I love spending time with my mama, even if it's just driving to the mall and back. When we got home, my mom and I made meatballs for her homemade pasta sauce that she would make on Sunday. I'd never helped with the meatballs before and it was pretty fun!

That night we all watched some TV together and then retired to our beds. I slept well once again, of course. Although I had another dream about having surgery, this time I was getting some sort of chest tube put in place. Weird.

Sunday morning I made myself get up early so I could go to the first service at Church. I got to sit by my favorite family and it was a message. I love my Church so much.

When I got home my mom and I made the sauce and then she left for work. C called me and wanted to hang out and of course I did too!! I missed my best friend! She drove over and we chilled and talked for awhile and then we went to eat together and bonded over politics an college discussions. She's a senior is and applying now, I pray that she gets into her dream school. She is so smart and talented!

After C left to go to work I had to do some homework on my computer. Then my sisters and I carved our pumpkins. Mine is really funny, I made it look like it's winking. And of course my pumpkin is the weirdest shape. I like them that way.

Everyone went to get my mom from work (why they all went is beyond me) and I was left to get dinner ready. The sauce had pretty much evaporated and no one knows why, my mom has literally been making it for decades. I blame myself.

Dinner was still good though and I always enjoy time with my family. In honor of my half birthday we had pumpkin cheesecake. Alright, it was not really in honor of anything, we just had it.

My dad and sisters all watched Once Upon a Time while my mom and I talked in my room. I love her so much. Unfortunately, I did not sleep well that night. Something did not agree with me and I was nauseous, yuck. I decided to skip my first class and hang at home for a little bit today. I got back around 11. Don't worry though, I'm not slacking I just didn't feel well.

All in all it was a really nice weekend. I was supposed to go home on Wednesday for Halloween but bad weather has tweaked that a bit so I will be home on Friday instead. Looking forward to a good week!


Sunday, October 28, 2012

Happy Half Birthday To Me!

Since I took that silly blogging break earlier this year I did not get to write on my birthday, so I am taking the chance to post on my half birthday! Today I am 18 1/2! Wow, I can't believe that I am closer to 19 than 18. Time flies.


Wednesday, October 24, 2012

...and self control

Self control. You may know it as the ninth fruit of the spirit. Yep, this trait is so important that the Bible (God's word) includes it among love, joy, peace, patience, faithfulness, kindness, goodness and gentleness. Well then...

It seems that homegirl here has been having some trouble with self control lately. Bottom line,  I stuff my face. I try to eat healthy but every time I pass up the cookies in the little convenience store or brownies in the cafe, I just have to have them. I honestly credit this trait to my parents, reason one being that my older sister and I NEVER got ANY sweets growing up. It was all natural, all organic...all the time. Maybe we'd get a yogurt pop or some Newman O's. Of course they weren't like dictators, we got cake on our birthday and could partake in deserts at gatherings and parties but it just wasn't the norm for us. This is why, when we now have access to these things, we take FULL advantage of them. The second reason why my parents are responsible for this is that my dad passed his incredibly sweet tooth onto me. Actually, I believe it was originally from my favorite grandma but I can't blame her! It's not that I don't love normal, healthy meals, I do. It's just that I don't feel complete until it's topped off with some cookies, ice cream or cake...anything sweet.

Furthermore, I can tell that all of this sugar is affecting me negatively. I need to just control myself and cut it out completely.

We'll see how I do, I really am going to try my hardest.

Lord, help me!


Sunday, October 21, 2012

Five Days

Five days (including today) until I go home for the first time in three weeks! I know that that's not a lot to some people but before college, I'd never even been away from home for more than a day (length of a sleepover to be precise).

I feel out of sorts, my family visited this weekend and my younger sister E even slept over lats night. It's weird, but seeing them actually makes me miss them more. Like, I'd been fine for the two weeks and then they visited on Saturday and I cried that night for a good ten minutes, even though I knew that I'd see my mom the next day when she picked up my sister. I think seeing them just makes me more aware of what I'm missing.

In addition to my loved ones, I miss my house! When I go home on Friday, I will have been away from my house for 20 days. Wow. 20 days since I slid on the kitchen tile in my socks, 20 days since I swung around the pole at the bottom of the basement stairs on my way to my room, 20 days since I sat at the kitchen table and chatted with my mom while she made dinner, 20 days since I flopped onto my favorite couch. And, saddest of all, 20 days since I snuggled my dog. Sniff sniff. I miss her too!

But, I have a feeling that this week will go by fast. I mean, they really have been so far. I've gotten all my homework done for tomorrow, which means that I have a 3 hour break between classes where I'll have nothing to do!

Wait a minute...



...that's when TAYLOR SWIFTS NEW ALBUM COMES OUT!! Holllllahhhhh!!!

I am so excited for Red (title of the album), obviously.

Oh and I do say "hollah" when I find out I got a good grade or figure out a hard math problem. It just adds to the excitement.

So...yeah, I'll be spending my free hours listening to the 16 tracks of Red, 12 of which will be completely new to me. I can't wait!! My older sister M is buying it and I'm downloading it right to my ipad here at school. She's returning the favor for all the times I bought her stuff over the summer with my graduation money.

Well...I'm going to go watch some Netflix. Have I mentioned that I'm rewatching my old favorite shows? I am. After I went through the Parenthood series for the first time in August, I moved onto my old favorite, Brothers and Sisters. I finished that series up last week and now I am watching Desperate Housewives. I know, I know, that show can be a But I really only watch for the entertaining mysteries and the funny characters. I cover my eyes at the bad stuff ok??

Signing off now, I've got a lot to look forward to. Red, coming home on Friday, the pumpkin muffins my dad brought me yesterday...



Thursday, October 18, 2012

My Mosiac Creations

 If you are visiting from the Link Party, welcome!!

First off, I think we can all agree that I am not an artist. However, I do love to create things and my "art" has been a great way to unwind here at college. I typically work on a project when I am done with homework or studying, usually every other night. I hang my masterpieces all over the white walls of my dorm room. Here they are!:
 I made the rest of my name too but this is anonymous so you just get to see the G!

 I made this one to remind me that that's why I'm here-to learn! It hangs above the bed where I sit and learn all of my Anatomy flashcards. This is actually not one of my favorites, I'm not totally digging the colors.

 Love this! I put it on my window and when the sun shines through it it look so pretty!

 This one is my very favorite, it's on the wall beside my bed.

 This one is on my door. I've always loved blue and yellow together, it reminds me of summer.

 What you're seeing here is a very messy desk! But I made the rainbow banner to keep my cheery while I do work. It's not mosaic like the rest but it's still fun.

I like to make words out of them too, Go Lucy Go!! I just made this sign the other day. 

So...yeah, that's pretty much it. I usually use three colors per piece and I think I have the most fun picking them out. I love to see what looks good together and try to avoid what doesn't.
 Thanks for stopping by!


I'm Crying...

Out of pure JOY!!!

Praise God!! I got an A on my Anatomy and Physiology midterm!!


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Time is Flying!

First off, I want to add one thing about my post yesterday: the pain that I endured was NOTHING compared to what some children have to go through. I cannot complain or feel sorry for myself when their are children suffering each and every day from cancer or other horrible diseases. Yesterday was infant loss awareness day. My favorite family lost their precious little boy just a few days after he was born. I know they miss him so much but it is so good to know that they will be reunited in Heaven one day.

Anyway, I can't believe it is already half way through October. Time is really going by so quickly. Before I know it it will be Thanksgiving and then Christmas. Right now, I'll focus on Halloween. I'm going to be at school for that of course and I don't think that I'll really have any way to celebrate. I'm sure there will be countless wild parties going on but that's not really my thing :). Furthermore, I'll be content with sitting in my room and eating candy while possibly watching a scary movie. Or maybe just Law and Order.

I had my early lab this morning and I got back some quizzes and my midterm. I got a 92 on one quiz and an 80 on the other. On my midterm I got a 78...I would be a bit down about his but the class average was a 73 so...I's say I did alright! Like 7 people had to drop the class because they failed. At least I didn't fail.

I only have Jazz class today left and it's just going to be a review for our midterm on Thursday. I actually get to wear something other than spandex! For the rest of the day I'll be making Jazz and Anatomy flash cards. Even though I don't have another test in A&P until next month I really have to keep up or I'll fall behind.

Tonight is Bible study, which is always fun. I really like the group of people, I just wish I could make some close friends there.

Well, that's all I've got for today.


Monday, October 15, 2012

My Journey With Scoliosis

I've been in a weird mood today. I didn't feel all that well and I was really stressed out about my statistics exam.

I've been meaning to write a post about my back and was planning on doing so on November 8th, the 6 1/2 year anniversary of my surgery. Obviously May 8th would have been ideal but I was on a blogging break then and I didn't want to wait for this coming May. I guess today I just feel like writing about it.

When I was 10 my parents found out I had scoliosis. My curve was already fairly bad and they didn't think they would be able to correct it with a brace so for a few years they followed it. During this time I rejected all doctors, I was rude, I ran away from offices, I didn't want to talk about it at all. I had countless x-rays. Finally, the winter when I was 11 they set a date for surgery. May 8th 2006. Right after my 12th birthday. Honestly, I didn't think about it, I wasn't really scared because I didn't understand what it was going to be like. I love my parents to death but I'm not sure that they did the best job of preparing me for what was to come. I met with a Child Life Specialist (what I want to be!) but I didn't grasp the severity of what was about to happen.

I had an anxiety attack the night before surgery, I felt like I couldn't breath. My mom stayed in my bed until I finally fell asleep. I went to the hospital really early in the morning, I put on the gown, braved the IV and waited in the pre-op room with my parents. I'll never forget the baby next to me, she was there alone.

Just before they wheeled me away, a nurse said she was going to inject something into my IV to help me relax. I was confused, I had previously told my parents that I did not want anything like that. The last thing I remember was trying to tell the nurse "no". I don't remember saying goodbye to my mom and dad. To this day, that still kills me.

I was in surgery for 12 hours. My spine was fused with a titanium rod from my thoracic to lumbar region, the majority of my spine. They tried to collapse my lung but I couldn't tolerate it and it filled with fluid. They put in a chest tube.

When I woke up I remember being in the PICU (pediatric intensive care unit) and throwing up a little from the anesthesia. I remember my ID band being really tight on my wrist, before surgery it had been really loose. Apparently I was very swelled up with fluid. My next memory is being wheeled to a regular room, I was confused and trying to crane my neck to see my mom behind the bed.

Everything was much more clear after a few days. I wasn't in much pain but I was very uncomfortable. I had to have breathing treatments every few hours, even at night. My older sister came to visit, I just felt off and didn't really enjoy anything. I got angry when they made me take a walk. I remember feeling like I was going to fall apart every time I stood. C came to visit me and brought gummy bears. My favorite. I was happy to see her, she brought me more Mylar balloons. I had so many, a lot of them were orange. My favorite color at the time.

One night I had a bad dream about being on a cruise ship and my mom hitting her head. I woke her up because I was so scared and confused.

I got allergic to the bandages on my back and had the MOST itchy rash in the whole world. I was told that my back looked like it had been burned. My mom spent hours scratching around the bandages.

A nurse came to draw my blood every day. Three times she got blood on my fuzzy blanket, she was foreign and said that some "Padoxide" (peroxide) would get it right out. That very blanket is laying on the bed next to me.

Finally, it was almost time for me to come home. On my last night they were trying to ween me off of morphine but one of the nurses didn't get the memo and gave it to me anyway, on top of another pain killer. I was really loopy and made up rap songs! My family will never let me forget it! That last night I woke up at 3 am and my mom and I watched Herby Fully Loaded.

The day I came home was mothers day, I had made my mom a card at school and brought it with me to the hospital. I think she was really touched.

Coming home was really hard. I had trouble sleeping and I couldn't swallow pills so my mom had to crush up my pills and put them in jelly. I had lost a lot of weight, I think I was probably somewhere around 50 pounds at 12 years old. The perkoset I was taking gave me awful dreams that were so realistic. It made it hard for me to wake up. I had to have a tutor because I couldn't return to school. Sitting for lengthy amounts of time was painful.

I'll never forget crying to my mom because I just wanted to feel "normal again", I didn't feel like myself. I was depressed for awhile, it's weird to think of a 12 year old being depressed but I really was and it was the hardest time I ever went through.

I'll never forget the day that things finally started looking up. It was my sisters last day of school and she got home early. My favorite Grandma, Grandma R was staying with me while my parents were at work and all three of us went to the mall. My Grandma refused to get me a wheelchair because she  knew I was strong enough to walk. I love her so much! Before we left I stopped at a kiosk that was selling Webkinz, at the time they were unknown. I bought one and my Grandma chuckled because she said that fads like that never last. Webkinz ended up catching on and lasting a good 3 years!!

The whole experience as hard, it was hard going from a girl who was doing flips to a girl who couldn't even do a cartwheel. It was hard to feel so out of touch with my own body. It was hard not being able to have my back scratched anymore (my favorite thing) because it was numb. It's hard having a long scar on your back, one on your side (from chest tube) and three little ones on your hands from IV's. Sometimes it gives me the creeps to think of having titanium inside me, but it "straightened" me out so I can't really complain.

For a long time I felt like the "dud" of the family. I was short, I had eye problems, back problems, bowed legs...I was very insecure. I am proud to say that with God, I have overcome these issues. Do I wish I never had to have had surgery?? YES! Do I wish that I was still flexible and able to have my back touched without flinching? Yep. But am I angry that this happened? NO!! I am closer to my mom because of it and I think that my positive experience with all of my nurses, respiratory therapists and doctors (once I learned to like them) influenced me to want a career in the medical feild.

I know that I have had this experience for a reason and I am thankful that God believed I was strong enough to handle it.

I'd say I came out alright!


Sunday, October 14, 2012

Sunday Musings

I'm sitting at my desk watching Law and Order SVU (the best type of L&O). I stayed at school this weekend and although it was BORING it was alright, I didn't go crazy like last time.

What does this week hold for me? Well, one statistics exam and a dance midterm. Fun stuff. I really hope I do well on stats, I'm still anxiously awaiting my midterm grade in Anatomy. Oh I am so nervous.

Hmmm, what else?? OH!!!! Taylor Swifts new album comes out in 8 days! I am beyond excited. I absolutely LOVE T-Swift. Not only is she a totally cool person, her music can range from upbeat-dance-around-the-room to cry-my-eyes out.
Here's an example of each:

 I really dislike this music video, but I love the song.

I cry every time I hear this

So basically, Taylor is one of my favorite celebrities. She's down to earth and so kind. I cannot wait for her new album....cannot wait. 

At risk of this post becoming all about Taylor Swift, I will now change the subject. 

To what? I got nothing. 
Happy Sunday!


Friday, October 12, 2012

Fall Dorm Decor!

Well...I don't exactly have a home to decorate but I do have a dorm room that is a blank canvas! I do "art" after I'm done with homework or studying, it's a way of unwinding and even though I'm not an artist or anything, I love to make things! These fall decorations kept me occupied for the past week or so:
 I printed these leaves out from the internet, it took me FOREVER to color them all and cut them out. But it was so much fun trying to make them look real.

 Fun little Jack-o-Lanterns. Some of them actually scare me a little bit!

 I drew this on my white board for all to see.

 Friendly ghost, I free handed this one and it came out pretty nice. This is on my bureau.

I also put a pumpkin on my mirror, I realized that I couldn't really take a picture of it without putting myself in there too and since this blog is anonymous I had to take it at this weird angle. Sorry folks!

Anyway, I know I'm not the next Picaso or anything but I like the room to feel festive and homey. 
Hope you are enjoying your fall season!